GMC Avalanche Monologue

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Pretend not to mind that he isn’t going to drive you there in his new, shiny, GMC Avalanche like everyone else's father. Instead drive your beat up, piece of crap car and be okay with it. It has been over a month now and the day that you’ve been dreaming about since you were in elementary school is finally here. You say that but you have always secretly dreaded this day because you assumed you’d be going alone. Check out of school early so that you can prepare for the night. Don’t wear your hair how you normally do; in that awful slicked back ponytail. Fix it up with nice loose curls. Put some makeup on, but not too much because you want to be yourself. Tonight will be an important night for you and your father. When your done getting …show more content…

Back into your heart where they belong. Washed up memories, more like nightmares pile in. This will be good for you though. You will begin to wonder why you’ve been trying so hard to prove yourself to someone who doesn’t even care. Your father won’t bother to show up. He won’t even bother to call. And when you arrive home later expecting to come face to face with him he won’t be there. Go inside and stomp into his room full of rage. You will be ready to tell him off but there will be no sight of him. No bags, no clothing, no toothbrush, and no car in the garage. It is like you are having deja vu. You will feel like you are reliving a memory except this time it evokes a different emotion. You feel clarity. Regret overwhelms you. You wonder why you even had such high expectations for someone you didn’t really know. You think about how it would’ve been different if you wouldn’t have strived for acceptance in something that held no hope. People of this world will continue to fail you, so put it in someone who is more deserves it over everyone else. Acknowledge what has been knocking in the back of your brain this whole time. You know where fulfillment comes from so guard your heart with it. There is only one thing that you can find acceptance in and you know where, so believe it wholeheartedly. Now before you act on your feelings again, use your head and think twice about what is really going to fulfill

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