Breaking Silence: A Black Girl's Struggle with Shyness

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Lights, camera, action. The spotlight gleams down on me. What do I say? Sure, my blackness typecasts me as aggressively outspoken, even though my occasional moments of shyness and social awkwardness prevents me from navigating within this narrative. A common rhetorical tactic that is upheld in the black community is the premise that young girls should be “seen, and not heard.” This narrative was heavily consumed in my household, which brew me to believe that my voice was trivial compared to my male counterparts. The Sapphire archetype of anger and the Jezebel archetype of sexuality failed to align with my shy persona. At a young age, I developed an inferiority complex. This is one of the effects of teaching young girls to keep quiet.

For a long time, my antisocial personality hindered me from venturing outside of my comfort zone, primarily in my community. Family members would praise my mother for raising quiet girls, though my gender role aligned shyness with vindictiveness. My peers thought I was stained with evil intent whenever I refused to participate in a mutual conversation. This determined the opportunities I aligned myself with throughout my secondary education.

My palms sweat and perspiration illuminates my mahogany complexion as the crowd looks up at me. My tongue becomes …show more content…

Audre Lorde was among the first who said that your silence will not protect you. Constantly, I am bombarded by images of police brutality and European aesthetics that restrict black navigation within America. While my brothers and sisters are actively forming grassroots organizations and protesting racial injustice, my shyness restrains me behind this computer screen and on this invisible stage, only wondering, “what do I say?” Although my mouth falters to speak out, my writing serves as a continuing stage to regain my sense of

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