Perception About Change

Last year, around this time, I was in high school, and my perception on people has dramatically changed. The change I saw made me want to change too, and I did not know if it is good or bad. I always knew I would never stay friends with everyone I aquatinted with, but I did think some would stay. Although the ones that stayed around really surprised me. I guess, you never know in life who you can trust to be there. Sometimes people have to go their own way, and it is hard to realize why you got left behind. Now a days I can only blame myself for not having as close of friends. Over the summer, I meant real people who would have been there for me, only if I would have let them. Truthfully, in my opinion, friendship breakups have left a bigger hole in me than a boyfriend relationship ever could. I had many best friends Alaina, was a major one since I got to see her every day in high school. I remember the days Alaina, and I had planned our last summer together being kids. For most girls things change when you get a boyfriend, but should it be that extreme you have to give up the ones, that were always there for you.

I could not tell who wanted to be a real friend, or who wanted to use me for the moment. Over the last part of the summer, or beginning of school year, I had met so many real girls, at my work, who might have just wanted a real friend too. I meant this girl Taylor, who has a rare personality, she is the life of a party, and someone I could see really being a true friend. I guess deep down I kept a slight distance, because I did not want to care when I got left behind. Truthfully there were times I could have been there for her, if I had just gotten past my own insecurities about letting people in again. I have learned that my past experiences with friends is effecting me now by always being skeptic about new people, and wanting to keep them at arm’s