Most of the time, I missed a step in the process or made the problem more hard on myself by trying to oversimplify. I found I struggled most in Trigonometry. I just couldn’t seem to grasp the concept of adding pi to the mix and how to decipher radians in their relations to piecewise functions. More recently, the trig managed to confuse me again but this time because I was attempting to prove trigonometric identities and find derivatives of the functions. It was hard and frustrating work for both the teacher and me.
I had a plan to document important notes where I could see them and visit workshops at Waketech to maintain my organization. Unfortunately, I was not able to keep up this progress and I ended up not attending any workshops because I forgot to write down the dates that they were being held. Overall my smart goal is not going as well as I thought it would be because I am still extremely unorganized and I still continue to feel more anxious during my
However, the fear of impressing someone, the anxiety and frustration is what makes me a developing writer. There are a number of factors that have influenced my writing today. I consider writing as one of the most tedious tasks. When given writing work, I tend to find it difficult to gather all my thoughts. The anxiety of what the outcome might be has always hindered my thinking and has thus led to my procrastination.
One of the major reasons why I procrastinate, is that I never have the motivation to get up and start doing work. This may be because of lack of sleep or not eating healthy food but in general it is because I just don’t have enough energy. Thinking about all the work I have to do, makes me think that I am not ready yet to put myself through several hours of torture. Having a bad day will also lower down my motivation level and cause me to procrastinate so that I can just relax. Doing work, especially if it’s a course I don’t enjoy can make me feel stressed.
That’s a little extreme, but how could one enjoy the preparation for an assignment in which they hate? Those previous negative experiences with public speaking are tied into my current hate of writing. Next were the prolonged book reports, journal entries and resumes with never ending revisions. I don’t even want to discuss reading, just another task that requires a person to sit and essentially do nothing for extended periods of time. Clearly not something I’d particularly take pleasure in.
My current state of health is not very good, and I think it is important to note the large role that attitude plays. I have an extremely negative perspective on living. While I remain undiagnosed because I have yet to see a proper therapist, I often experience overwhelming feelings of depression and anxiety. Unfortunately, my depressive and suicidal thoughts regularly leave me with no motivation for anything, even activities I once enjoyed. Since I repeatedly find myself no longer wanting to live, the idea of making proper lifestyle choices to elongate my time on earth is unappealing.
From listening to previous students speak about how everything depends on the WPJ and the time limit not being enough, I entered the classroom a little worried. I know it was only a practice essay, but I thought the prompt would not be relatable to me which would result in an unfinished essay. However, that was not the case. I stuck to the timeframe of fifteen minute brainstorm, forty minute draft, and five minute edit for an outcome of a complete paper. Planning is one thing that I am not as comfortable with in regards to timed writings because, it usually takes me brain a while for it to generate an idea .
I think this could be due to two different reasons. The first being my lack of a grammatical background. Obviously, you can’t be expected to implement concepts that have never been taught to you. The other reason is that I have a really hard time editing my own work. I say to my students ALL the time, “PLEASE re-read your work.
Along with anxieties, obsessive thoughts make receiving an education as a student difficult. Writing anxieties make writing papers for classes super hard. I tend to procrastinate when it comes to these types of assignments. I get writer’s block, feel like I don’t know what to write, and I also feel like I am not doing a good job of writing. Making new friends is grueling with social anxiety.
I become so stressed out and worked up that I am unable to even think about studying because it becomes so overwhelming. . At the beginning of the school year I had high expectations that I would get an assignment done as soon as I received it in class. As I have learned the hard way this is not realistic. When I become stressed I don’t know how to handle my emotions and I become overly irritated and get temperamental.