While reading all the terrible things that she did to him I was at the verge of tears so many times. I hated his mother so much I couldn’t understand how no one realized how terrible she was to Dave. When she stabbed him for a split second I thought she was going to let him bleed out, and make up some elaborate lie as to what to had happened to
The first internal pressure that factored in triggering Esther’s madness is the death of her father and the hate for her mother. Esther lost her father when she was 8 years old and she was raised by her mother. According to the book, Esther never came to term with her father’s death and continued to be grieved. Therefore, Esther was affected mentally with her lost as seen in her poetry “Daddy”, “I used to pray to recover you”. She kept longing for a male figure who could replace her father.
The only children left at home were the ones that could not leave, my sister and me. As the years went by, my mother still mourned over the death of Jo’Anna and never let her go. Her anger at the situation fell upon us. My dad was constantly working. So that left me and my sister in the house with a mother that is unable to cope with the loss, and has develope... ... middle of paper ... ...filled my heart and I did not want to admit to someone else let alone myself that I felt this way.
Poor Emily received little attention when attention was needed, allowing us to condemn the mother for her actions. At the same time we understand her because in the past 19 years there were certain situations that they endured where she had no control, leaving her helpless. What we see in the mother from the beginning is guilt, guilt about neglecting Emily. After a concerned phone call about her daughter, anger caused by guilt buried within herself emerges “who needs help…you think because i am her mother I have a key...there is all that life that has happened outside of me, beyond me.” The mother is defensive and outraged about this phone call at first but shortly after we see the guilt. We find ourselves asking why does she act this way and how is guilt associated with the way she acted?
It appears that he could have murdered her in a few sections. In the poem she laments that that he was sorrowful and down on his luck (“Wife’s” 1). For this reason, it is plausible that he decided to take out his bad fortune on his wife by killing her. It is unclear why he would choose to kill her, regardless she speaks as one who has been betrayed. She states openly that he was embroiled and considering murder (“Wife’s” 1).
Penny's life was a struggle ever since the tragedy of losing her daughter. In explaining the reason for not being able to let it go after such a long time, she mentioned how she felt responsible for horrible death. After a few meetings of therapy Penny came to realize that her daughter was not coming back, and she began to deal with the real issues that were causing her so much pain. She told Dr. Yalom that the way she handled her daughter's death made her feel extremely guilty. So guilty that she couldn't even remember the actual dying process tha... ... middle of paper ... ....
It makes Mathilda wonder if something is wrong with her. She also believes she is the cause of her mother's and eventually father's death. Mathilda feels unworthy of any sort of relationship later in life. After her father kills himself, she is devastated and feels lost in the world he left her in. Although her father may not have meant to do so, he affected the way Mathilda would forever look at her self and how she fit into society.
When he got deported the first time I had to grow up and basically become a second mother to my siblings. Not only was my best friend taken away from me, but I also knew the responsibility that was about to be put on my shoulders because of this. Now, I really can’t enjoy my college years the way I wish I could have. My mother completely lost it when she heard the news about my dad. She had just overcome the fright of my sister’s diagnosis and now she had a whole different situation to stress over.
Her words like shoot trough my brain and remained resound. I don’t know how much time I couldn’t make a sound – the combination of the upset voice of my mother, which shocked me, because I’ve never heard her sounding like this, and the tought that my dream is on its way about to crash in front of me, a few hours before it goes true, made my legs shaking, my mind clouded and it felt like I lost my ability to talk. “Are you okay?” – I finally m... ... middle of paper ... ...ining – I couldn’t understand this idiom till then. I thought the bad thing can’t be good. I thought bad and good are two completely different things.
Once she begins to lose her ability to read and write, it takes a big toll on her character, creating one of the main reasons she becomes depressed. Even the thought of being sent back home to live with her mother all summer with nothing to do is a big element in her descent to depression. On top of her writing, Esther’s family situation adds on to her struggles. With her father deceased since the 1940s, Esther is stuck with her mother whom she does not like. Last is Buddy Willard, now Esther’s ex, sends Esther to a conflict between Buddy and herself, and another one between herself and her search for someone considered pure.