Life is seen as a blessing, and a miracle. Death is feared by most, people who are at deaths doors only wish they had more time to live. Life brings opportunities to love, to succeed, to do things that make them happy. Living is not always butterflies and rainbows theres hardships to be had, to some life is so unbearable that death is their way of escaping. I have never really been attached to anything and only saw myself as a waste of space so one day I decided to put an end to my mundane existence. I have never truly liked myself, never been proud of anything I’ve done. I don’t even remember much of my childhood,but I can recall is feeling extremely hollow. I remember that some of my fellow peers in elementary used to call me a demon or …show more content…
My aversion to emotions is all because child like joy and innocence were defiled and purloined by my great uncle. No one expects to get hurt especially not by a member of your family, so why would a child. I used to play with Ovidio all the time in our basement, he used to spoil me as well by getting me big doll houses and a guitar which he tried to teach me to play. I would also bug my older sister,Jazmin, to play with us, one day she agreed and we went to play hide and seek, I was the seeker that day, I have always been good with numbers and a fast counter so I finished before he had expected me to. When I went to seek them I found him with his filthy paws clamped on the sides of Jazmin’s face kissing her, I felt betrayed and responsible but I knew I had to do something to save her so I pieced my soul back together and went to get my father. I sprinted up the stairs, trying to match the pace at which my tears went down my face, and got my dad to follow me back down stairs where he apprehended Ovidio and kicked him out of our house telling him to never comeback again, what happened after was a …show more content…
Life has never been the same since then though, I have been wary of men especially older hispanic males, I am now extremely overprotective of Jazmin, I try to keep my distance from everyone even my family and loath myself because it was my fault if I did’t exist she would have been safe. Early on in my senior year, around September 2014, I became severely depressed because I realized that I was’t going to amount to much and that I only caused pain. I overcame my depression for my senior year by drowning my self in work, trying to keep my mind busy. Once I graduated and went to Prince Georges Community College in the fall of 2015 though I became consumed in the dark abyss that was my mind. All I could think about was the burden that I am and that everybody would just be better of without me so I dropped out of school and attempted suicide by overdosing on pills at 12 A.M 15 September 2015. That morning I woke up devastated that it hadn’t worked, you 'd think 36 mixed pills would do the trick. I texted my other older sister Maritza and asked her what would happen if a person were to take about 30 pills of different types, I forgot what she said but she figured out that I had done exactly that and told my
Sanctity is an important word. (“ Sanctity: (2) ultimate importance and inviolability.”) It literally means important, but the word sanctity has no true meaning alone. Actually, so does humanity.
Death is not a concept that is well grasped or understood but we all know the cycle of life, we live and we die. We do not know how and we do not know when, our fate is laid out for us, we just learn to accept it because it is just how it goes. Some are lucky enough to live a healthy life with few to none complications and some find themselves fighting for their lives because of a terminating illness or severely injured from any type of accident. In an act of pain, torture, agony and knowing there is no hope for survival why can it not be you that has the upper hand in deciding when it is time to say goodbye.
A common question many civilizations shared and strived to answer was about death and the afterlife. In Ancient Egypt, the lives of many citizens centered around a prosperous future in death. In fact, Ancient Egyptians believed life continued on in death. For this reason, they yearned to live justly as citizens of Egypt. If not, then the gods would deem them unworthy of entering heaven, or paradise. This was Ancient Egypt, a society seemingly obsessed with the afterlife and enriched with funeral practices. Their worship of pharaohs and gods, detailed inscriptions about mummification, and elaborate tombs influenced their constant strive towards achieving everlasting peace in the afterlife.
Everyone has a mental picture of themselves; whether it’s how they look, what they’re good or bad at, and what their weaknesses and strengths are. A lot of people tend to think negatively about themselves, but they’re just looking at it the wrong way, and there are many ways to boost your self-esteem. If you are constantly thinking negative things about yourself, it’s bound to make you upset about who you are. Every day, try to write down three things about yourself that make you happy. Build up your self-esteem. Set mini goals for yourself, ones that you know you can get done, while still doing what you need to. Reward yourself. Let you know you are worth something and that you are good for something.
Now that I know what death is, I can define it from my perspective. I think death is an aspect of life that everyone will experience. It is the last phase of a person’s life but there is an after death life as some people believe. No one knows when death will knock his door because death does not ask a person’s permission to take his life. It is the time you lose everything you have worked so hard and earned in your life. In addition, many of your beloved people will lose you and miss you.
...ng that it brings time of despair and feeling of sorrows .Life should be celebrated and live every day with a positive perspective in everything we set our mind to. Death is not a moment of happiness regardless of any idea of immortality ,death is consider a dark moment in our life that put on end to all dreams and new starts in life
A young anonymous college freshman tells a story of the depression she faced throughout her first semester of college, through the transition and her roommate issues. Not only did it occur during her first semester, but through her second as well. Unfortunately, the depression overtook her life to the point of her desire to commit suicide. Luckily, she changed her mind in the last second and saved herself (Reachout.com). This young student is not just one of few depressed college students, but she is one of many. Colleges must take more responsibility of mental health issues, like depression, by researching the causes and effects while discovering beneficial treatments that promote the students’ overall well being.
In the past 35 years the suicide rate for college campuses has tripled (Oswalt 1995). This shows that there is a clear need for something to be addressed within the college community. The recent surveys show that about 10-15% of college students are depressed (Lindsey 2009). Depression can be a debilitating illness especially when many students attend college away from their close friends and family. This could result in students with more suicidal thoughts and attempts at suicide. In fact, the number of students with suicidal thoughts has tripled over the past 13 years as the number of students seeking help for depression doubled in the same span (Lindsey 2009). Depression can effect these teens in other areas of their life as well. The students who reported that they were depressed also reported that they considered their health fair or poor (Lindsey 2009). In their cases, depression not only effects them psychologically but also physically. Depression is also known to impair psychosocial development and academic success (Lindsey 2009). With all of these factors put togethe...
When we hear the word death, we define it as the end of life itself. Most people fear death because it’s either going to be painful, unknown, or even both. I believe most of us fear death because it’s a final moment of being part of loving relationship or family, it makes you feel that there’s a ticking clock counting down your existence and that all you wished for or hoped may have not been achieved. I consider death an adventure because as human, we
I was very excited to make a new step in my life, college. I came with high hopes and aspirations. My hometown is not near Arizona, It is Lake Tahoe, Nevada, so going home for the weekend was simply out of the question. I had a great time for the first month, enjoying freedom. However, I was sitting in my room one night writing a paper with my roommate, and one of my friends from home called me. She said that one of our good friends from high school had just committed suicide earlier that day. I didn’t know how to react to this; I was scared, and confused. Why did he do it? Why didn’t anyone know that he was unhappy? Was he unhappy? I felt regret, thinking I should have been there for him. Once the crying commenced, my mother called me telling me that my last grandma had gone into the hospital. She had collapsed in her apartment and was rushed to the emergency center. I had no idea what to do. I felt like God was just condemning me and attacking me for some reason. I went into this deep depression and I didn’t want anyone to talk to me, if they did, I would simply start crying. I was alone, and no one knew who I was. I was too far away from home to go to my friend’s ceremony.
I have always been to asking myself what is meaning of life? or what I supposed to do ? or what I have to achieve? . Meaning of life what 's you have been given? what you have given by different kind of human? Or what I believe or what I do not believe in life .Everybody have Meaning of life it depends between person to person, I found myself when I was young because my parents always talk about experience in their life.Throughout my entire life ,I have wondered about the significance meaning of life that has beneficial for the people, because the life is beginning odds and ending odds .Even though struggle of life, I believe meaning of life are ,regional ,ambition, participate ,achievement ,and happiness .Due to this, I
This amounted into years of heartache for me and my two sisters and I was left with trauma.
During the years of 2014-2015 when I was a senior in high school, I had one of the lowest and highest points in my life that I can vividly remember. The lowest point began when I got my class rank, and I realized that it was not high enough for me to get into my dream school UT. I have always had low self-esteem but after that, it plummeted even further. However, that fall I kept hope and still applied. Around February I had found out that I was not accepted and I was shattered. During this time, it was hard for me to find motivation to do anything. All I wanted to do was sleep regardless of the time, which to me was a strong indication that something was wrong. This continued until about May when I
Death is still the scariest thing to face in life and very hard to understand, but by overcoming the death of a loved one you will realize, death is just the way life works, its reality You will be able to see you are able to live your life without your loved one by your side. Overall, just enjoy everything you have in life because one day it will all be taken away from
Complicated is a good word to describe my childhood. I am originally from Lima, Peru, where I lived my first eight years. Also, I am the only child of my mom Susana Ramos, a secretary, and Julio Ayin, a pilot of the Peruvian air force. Since before I was born, my parents were separated because of infidelities. Both, frequently argued over money and myself. I had to constantly attend counseling sessions because I was acting up, due to the fact that I was getting affected by my parent’s hostile encounters. As a kid, I always looked at my friends and saw how their family were united and how they had a great relationship with their father, which I always wanted but never got. I spend countless nights, crying and trying to figure out why my father never came to see me and every time I ask him why he never told me. Until one day I found out that he got