Finding Solace in Grandpa's Terminal Cancer

Walking into a nursing home every day is hard enough , let alone when you're there to see your best friend . My grandpa had terminal cancer throughout his body . He was the best friend I had and I was going to lose him . He was diagnosed after it was too late to do anything about it and only had a few months to live . He was in and out of the hospital going back and forth from the nursing home . One day around a month before he died , he sat me down on his bed next to him and started to point out the window . On this rainy day covered in clouds I was wondering what he could be pointing at . He said " Do you see that spot right there ? " . I shook my head yes and waited for him to catch his breath . " Whenever you miss me , that's where i'll be . You can look up at the

The sun was not up yet when we arrived . I didn't cry when we got there . I had to be strong for my family because I knew no one else could be . When the sun finally awakened there were no clouds . I remember looking up to see the entire back yard tinted a periwinkle blue . Even the brown tree trunk had been tinted . I knew then that my grandpa was safe from heaven and was already looking over me . Everything stayed that color the entire day making it hard to keep my mind occupied . Around my birthday in 2015 my mom and I was unlocking the door when we were tickled by a butterfly brushing against us . This wasn't the usual small , white butterfly you would see this time of year . This butterfly was large in comparison with a black to blue ombre on its wings . The butterfly landed on the sidewalk in front of us and wouldn't leave no matter how close we would get to it . I broke down crying because I could feel my grandpas presence through this butterfly . He was speaking to us . Now anytime I look at the sky I can feel him watching over me . The sky is more than just a place for the clouds , it is where my best friend resides