Overcoming Failure Research Paper

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My entire life has been a ceaseless struggle between overcoming potential and past failures. I have often imagined multiple scenarios in my head in which could occur of just one action, and most of the outcomes end horribly. This negative thinking is something I have carried and continued for years on end, beginning in my elementary school years. The burden of failure is a heavy weight upon my existence, and any mistake I have ever made in the presence of another I have often vastly apologized for. Eventually, my mom told me to stop apologizing all of the time; I still did anyways. It took me at least five years for her message to finally sink in, after being repeatedly told by her and many others to not apologize for accidents, and when it …show more content…

In the seventh grade, I felt as if I was being bullied harshly at school. In truth, my own self-hatred had become so prominent that I broke down crying one day to my mom and told her I could not go to school anymore. I can still remember the feeling of my mom clutching me tightly as I sobbed uncontrollably into her arms. A few days to a week later, I was enrolled in cyber Cisney 2 school. However, I quickly began to realize that I was an extremely social person and never being around others except for my immediate family was beginning to depress me greatly. After only a semester of cyber school, I returned to public school. It may be important to note, at this point, that as I have said before, I am a very social person. Controversially, I am also an extremely anxious person. I had very little friends growing up, and never once hung out with anyone outside of school until eighth grade, and it has always been extremely hard for me to make friends with new people. Yet again, my fear of failure still influences my social and mental health in vague ways. Perhaps it is all of this that would eventually lead up to the biggest failure of my life: the eleventh

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