I have this fear. My stomach begins to feel strange. My palms get clammy. My knees become weak, and my heart beats out of my chest, mangled with anxiety and passion. As thoughts of certain life rush through my mind, all I can think is an innocent soul is a precious phenomenon. I imagine that very day, and then welcome the implications of where my thoughts are taking me. I am nervous to become a new mother to say the least. It’s not really the fear of becoming a new mom, of course. Rather, it is the view of a long way to fail, What if I am not a good mother? My sense of security is screamingly existent. I can rely on my surefootedness, and the aid of my wonderful husband, Jeremy.
Being told I would never be able to conceive a child was the most deafening thought that ever could have crossed my mind. I’d seen so many doctors, but sadly none of them knew what was wrong. Finally, on January 7, 2015 I had a full abdominal along with a pelvic ultrasound conducted. When the results came in I was anxious of the news (not to nay-say) but I knew it would be bad. The conclusion was I, had a mild case of endometriosis- it is a chronic disease that most women accumulate throughout their lives. I was also informed that I had ovarian cysts and that my right ovary had no function what-so-ever. The pain was
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Each day is a new amazing journey that has completely shifted my focus and has made me realize that my life will never be the same. Finding out on June 9, 2015 that we were having a baby boy was such an overpowering emotion. In that moment, not only did I grasp the fact that I was going to have a baby boy, I recognized that I would be having a son in four short months. The first time I ever felt him kick was really bizarre, and he nearly scared the life out of me. Now I wait for his little kicks or, lately his gnarly head-butts just to say “hello”. The best thing to do now is sit and be
"They did everything they could to help me and make me feel comfortable,” Grant said. “The only thing on my mind was, ‘I can’t get pregnant!’”
Endometriosis is a very painful disease where tissue that usually grows inside the uterus grows outside the uterus. Because this tissue is endometrial tissue it still breaks down and bleeds during the menstrual cycle. Once the tissue breaks down there is no way for it to leave the body. This can cause severe pain. Endometriosis can also involve the ovaries and cyst can form called endometriomas. There are several symptoms from endometriosis, severe abdominal pain, pain with intercourse, pain with bowel movement, extremely painful periods, and excessive bleeding.
I have this fear that causes my body to shake. When I think about it, my skin becomes pale and cold. It’s death speeding through my mind. Once I have seen these monstrous roller coasters, the only thing in my mind was fear. Knowing that I’m afraid to go on these rides, I didn’t want to look like a fool in front of my friends. My mind is thinking of deadly thoughts. My palms were sweaty and I was twitching like a fish. I was petrified of heights.
She had me wrapped around her tiny finger from the moment I laid eyes on my little girl. She had ten fingers and ten toes, and the most beautiful head of curls in the world. And I knew that I would do anything for her. But I never knew what all that would entail. This happens to many new parents as they transition into being a parent. Fathers, and mothers, are told what to expect when a baby comes into the household, but they are never fully prepared for what happens after the pregnancy and birth. “At the moment a baby is born; so is a new parent” (Levine et al., 2011, p.181). And being a new parent brings along the realization of all that you have to do, and all you have to go through, for your baby. The transition to fatherhood usually includes the identifiers of, according to Fox (2001), the helper and the provider. Each of these roles involves the ups, such as excitement, delight, and maturity (Chin, R. et al., 2011). Then there are the downs, such as stress, exhaustion, and a feeling of helplessness (Chin, R. et al., 2011).
Pregnancy can be an exciting and sometimes frightening experience for many women. It was a snowy Sunday afternoon, and I was not feeling very well. I remember all week long, every morning I felt nauseated. I was craving odd foods, and foods I normally would not eat together. I was on the phone with my best friend explaining to her how I was feeling. She said “It sounds like you are pregnant.” That thought never even crossed my mind until that moment. Sure enough she was right, I was pregnant for the first time. I was excited to have a baby and never realized how many emotions or complications can take place during a pregnancy. Everybody that I knew that had babies, had such wonderful experiences. Unfortunately, this happy moment became such a monumental, emotional and stressful time in my life. During my pregnancy, I went through many emotional experiences from almost losing my child, to the uncertainty of a birth defect and early delivery.
It was August 25, 2006 and I just received the news that I was going to have a baby. At that moment so many thoughts ran through my mind. I was extremely nervous and terr...
When I was little I always wondered why I did not have any siblings. When I got to age ten my mom explained to me that she had endometriosis, a form of infertility. At age ten I did not understand the full meaning, but did understand that it made me become an only child. Now that I am much older and have more knowledge in this field I find it very interesting all the ways a women can develop infertility. Not only are there ways to avoid it but also ways to cope with it. Through the years I saw my parents deal with it and I can tell you it is not easy. Finding out your body is not enough to hold another child is devastating to a woman. Even with In-Vitro and other kinds of fertility supplements it is not the same as your own child. I would love to say there is a cure but unfortunately there is not one yet. Researchers are working hard no doubt but hopefully with time no woman will have to hear the horrible news of having infertility.
“Managing Infertility.” USNews.com. Stanford University Medical Center, 31 Mar. 2007. Web. 22 Mar. 2010. .
The irrational fear of death or seeing death as a bad thing, comes from the
Stevens, John, and Nazia Parveen. "I've Been Refused IVF Because My Fiance Is Already a Father, Reveals Heartbroken Woman." Mail Online. N.p., 1 Nov. 2013
In a year I’ve grown so much and through the love and affection from both my husband and son I have met my needs. They have both motivated me to find myself and explore new things. I’ve come so far with the love and support from them. Today I have built my self-esteem
It was the happiest feeling that I have ever felt in my life, and as time came near for me to have my son the feeling became greater and greater. When I heard one of the nurses saying “Were ready, she’s now nine centimeters”, I began to get very anxious and excited at the same time. Although I was beginning to get happy I was still in disbelief as all of it was happening. I see the nurses preparing themselves. I just said to myself, “oh yeah its happening alright”. I was about to become a mother which was so unreal to me and nerve racking because I had no idea how to love or be mother. My heart became full of so many emotions, however the thought that dominated my mind was that I had to be the best mother I can be so my son could grow up and be the man he was destined to
What You Need to Know About Endometriosis and Your Fertility. Doubling over with pain during your period? Sometimes, it's way more than just a serious case of cramps. For approximately 176 million women globally, it's endometriosis, a painful disease in which tissue that normally lines the inside of the uterus grows outside of the uterus. And unfortunately, endometriosis is one of the leading causes of infertility and one of the more difficult ones to treat, says Shahin Ghadir, M.D., reproductive endocrinologist at Southern California Reproductive Center.
I still can’t get over the fact I am a mother it’s not an easy job to do. I have had my fair share of struggles emotionally and physically. I worked dead end jobs and it just wasn’t enough to get by we couldn’t live. This is what gave me that push to go and get my nursing assistant certification it was a stable way to live. I had to put school on hold because I had to work and to raise him at the same time. It gets tough sometimes and I just want to scream because I never knew what my son would do next. Even though it gets stressful and there is a lot of the unknown I wouldn’t change it for the world.
After months and months of eating for two, constant visits to the doctors, and my husbands teasing, the moment of truth finally hit me. I was actually going to give birth to this tiny individual who had been living in my stomach for the past nine months. I was finally going to meet the creature that had been kicking me and keeping me from a great nights sleep. The one thing from this experience that I have learned is that nobody will ever be able ...