Dodie Clark Depersonaliization

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Imagine having a deep, unshakable feeling rooted in your chest that your mind is disconnected from your body and has become numb to your surroundings. In some cases, this might feel like being a ghost and observing your own body. This is the most common symptom of a disorder called depersonalization. This disorder, which only one to two percent of the population have lifetime experiences with, can potentially affect a person's emotions, memories, and physical being in different levels of severity. While it is not a fatal disorder, it can have a huge impact on a person’s life, especially if left undiagnosed. Depersonalization is a dissociative disorder defined as “a state in which one’s thoughts or feelings seem unreal or not or not to belong …show more content…

She also suffers from depersonalization, with depression and anxiety as the root of the disorder. Clark has suffered from this disorder since she was seventeen and only recently received a diagnosis. In her youtube video ‘depression, anxiety, depersonalization’, she explains exactly what the disorder is for her. In texts to friends, which she reads out in the video, she explains feeling as if she isn’t there or that she is constantly drunk. She says, “I can’t talk to anyone because I’ve forgotten how I usually talk. I don’t even look like me and everything is so wrong and weird and scary. I honestly think I’m going mad.” Despite this, she goes on to say, “here’s the thing. I am alive, I can breathe, and I can eat and talk and sleep and see and feel, so I should be okay, and objectively I am fine, so why am I not?” After this, she mentions deciding to go home to her family in search of feeling normal and being around things and people that are familiar to her. For Dodie Clark, depersonalization affected both her own life in the way she thought and acted and the lives of those around her when she started being unable to properly communicate and interact with them. It forced her into feeling a little insane, and as she said, she felt unable to properly talk to her own friends. However, even feeling like this, she points out that she can still act normal and do normal things; she can still function as a human being. She still experiences the symptoms of depersonalization, as there is very little that can truly be done to treat it, other than therapy which is currently unavailable to

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