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As the year went on I had more and more offers to play at different universities, but I was not paying attention to any of my mentors when they would tell me that none of these offers meant anything if I didn’t have the grades. I respect my mentors as if they were father figures because they have been where I want to go and have everything that I want, but I was too busy listening to family members who would tell me that I was going pro after my first year of college. As an 18 year old, you believe what your family tells you because you think it is right because they said it. Unfortunately, I found out that this was not always the case. The school year went on, and as others where preparing for the ACT and SAT, I was busy getting in trouble with the law and not going to class.

I, like a lot of people, didn’t go to college straight out of High School. It wasn’t on my agenda. After High School I took a year off and did nothing except make a little money babysitting, sleeping in, and there were about two months where I took up jogging. The following summer I felt this ping in my stomach when I saw pictures online of people getting ready to go back to college. So far in my life I hadn’t liked school but there was this part in my head that said I only didn’t like it because I couldn’t choose what I wanted to do.

If you had met me in high school, you would realize I am not the same person I am today. I used to believe that people do not change, they never will. Growing up I came to believe that it is impossible for people to change. This is not true, after being in college for a short four months, I am a completely different person than I was when I left home which is for the better. Unfortunately, I was arrested the first week of school.

Being raised on good morals I could not do it. Now it's like our relationship never existed. I let her and her family go because I did not want my kids raised around someone like that. Another hard decision was going back to college to earn a degree. I have been dealing with this issue since I have graduated high school.

I swore it had to be the worst timing. On top of that, I heard finalists had been getting calls for the past two weeks about who had received or lost the scholarship. They were asked to keep it a secret so the surprise wouldn't be spoiled. I hadn't been called, yet. I had no idea if I was the chosen person or one of the rejects, and it only made my anxiety worse.

Not one single person on earth can explain why they are where they are in life in a single sentence. I used to think that I would just take a year off of school after I graduated from college. Maybe I would explore or just work a lot and save up some money so I could have a little more freedom in life. Whatever it was, I was not quite sure yet, I just really did not want to be in school for a while. Well, my plans changed when everyone I knew was telling me not to do that because I would most likely not go back.

I had been thinking about getting a job yet I was too young for most jobs so I didn't bother to even look for one. Also, I honestly just wanted to lay around my house and play video games. Then, one spring afternoon, my mom brung home an application for a summer job for youth. Instantly I rejected the application because I saw it had to do with farming. Weeks later, I realized again that I hated not having a source of money other than asking my mom who had always said no when I asked.

One of Lee’s friends also said, “I went to see her the next week, telling her how excited everyone was that she came. And she said, “Oh, but I didn’t go to that” (Tucker, 2015). This quote was talking about when Lee randomly showed up to a writers symposium. This shows that Lee is not aware of what she is doing sometimes so it would be unethical to publish the book because that is not what she really wants. If she didn’t want to publish the book for many years it would not make sense for her to want to publish it now that her health is declining.

She was not happy and thought I was making a big mistake in stopping. She suggested that I take a month off to think about it some more but to not fully walk away. I took her advice and took a month off from swimming. During that month I did not really think about swimming or miss it. I was too focused on getting prepared to start college.

The year that I joined Facebook was in 2014, the beginning of my senior year. I know that most of you are probably thinking I was crazy for waiting that long, but I never really had any inclination to join. So when senior year rolled around I thought, ‘what the heck, why not!’ It was my senior year and I may never see any of these people again, so I thought it would be a good way to keep in touch. But before joining Facebook, people were always keeping me informed on what was going on. Who was dating, who broke up, and who got caught cheating on who.