Level Of Narcissism

To analyze my level of narcissism, I took the NPI scale. Narcissism can be defined as a state in which one interprets and regards everything in perspective to oneself and not to other people or things in their surroundings. The NPI, comparing attitudes on 40 different accounts, allows you to pick which attitude best fits your person. After completing the test, I scored a 9, which is defined as an “Average” amount of narcissism. I showed aspects of narcissism when it came to having a natural talent for influencing people, on occasion wanting to be the center of attention, being a good leader, being assertive, wanting the respect I think I deserve, being able to read people, taking responsibility for my decision making, and wanting to be a great

Being an only child has allowed everything in my immediate family to revolve around my life, however, I don’t enjoy being the center of attention in large gatherings due to the inability to relate to commonalities with persons my age. Growing up, I was always the only child that had parents that didn’t have any friends with kids my age. At every social gathering or outing, I was forced to socialize with adults. Throughout my younger years, I was always referred to as the child that was much more mature than their age, which has led to an increased sense of assertiveness and leadership. I find it easy to communicate with adults and persons of authority, but have a difficult time keeping close relations with young adults my age. This has made my persona to come across as stuck up and narcissistic at times, but deep down I know it is due to the way I was raised, and I am working towards being more open to other people and taking into consideration others thoughts and

Within my present days I have managed to diminish my phobia to a respectable measure, one of which most people don’t know I have a problem unless I inform them. However, my phobia does tend to increase and heighten during times of extreme stress. First presented when I was dealing with my parents’ divorce, my grandfather’s death, my cousin’s death, and the introduction of new significant others within my parents life. More presently, my phobia increased during my freshman year of college. I was struggling with the idea of living with someone completely estranged to me and I was extremely far from home and with a lack of ability to get home. As a result, my phobia presented itself half way through the year and brought upon an acute depression. Within this time frame I lost ten pounds and never socialized at school. This became another huge reason as to why I came home from New York City and pursued my educational goals here at SUNY Brockport. Conclusively, I did not see myself as having a zero on the scale for obsessive