Dialectical Journal Analysis

Jaren
Journal #1
When I get nervous I try to make the situation as funny as possible, if a situation is awkward I will try to make as many jokes as I can or I will just make it as easy for me as possible. When it comes to these situations I will put in as many funny things to ease the awkwardness of what I’m presenting or saying. When I presented in chemistry I added as many funny pictures and funny things so that the people would take their attention off of me and laugh so then they wouldn’t have to be looking at what im doing. When I had to give a speech about reading in the 5th grade a make a joke saying that reading is for nerds, and during the speech I purposely messed up what I was saying so the speech would be funny.
One thing that I can’t control is my hands get really really sweaty, if I have to give a long speech my hands will be soaked by the time I am done giving the speech, ive

One thing that I struggle with today and I really wish I didn’t, I panic really easily, this is really bad for me when im playing video games, or when im giving a speech and I goof up a word, my adrenalin starts going and I over think what im doing, I think this is completely controlled by me but I think it is really influenced by the people around me. Because of how people treat me I have to really think about what im going to say so I don’t get made fun of or corrected. I think because of this I have become really critical and insecure of who I am, it goes the same way with how I read and write, I can think really fast but I cant always talk as fast as I want to so therefore I lose control of what im saying and I either stutter and botch really