Borderline Personality Disorder

Personality disorders is a mental illness that effects many individuals. When I look within myself and my personality, I see someone that has been effected by a personality disorder. I feel that it would be inappropriate for me to say what I think my personality disorder would be, especially when I know that I suffered from one during my teenage years. When I was taken from my birth family and placed into foster care, I was setup with psychotherapy in order to treat my under lying issues of grief, loss, abandonment, and anger. In order to get a complete diagnosis, the professionals needed me to participate in a psychological evaluation. This is where I came into contact with my first mental health issue, borderline personality disorder

I most definitely had instability in my interpersonal relationships and my self-image. When I look at the 9 different criteria within the contexts. The ones that probably are the most prominent is the patterns of instability, impulsivity, fear of abandonment, anger issues, and feelings of emptiness. This most definitely made me a difficult teenager and my foster family would probably agree. However, I do not feel I was totally out of hand. Though I do not have the diagnosis of borderline personality disorder, due to being replaced by another, there are some traits I feel will always remain. Therapy that I have had in the past has helped me deal with them without getting out of control. Traits that still remain are feelings of emptiness, impulsivity and instability in some of my relationships. I do not feel that these occur on a regular basis. The instability of my interpersonal relationships has to deal with my birth family. The relationships that are continuously strained is with my father and my two birth sisters. My father and I will talk for a little bit, then we will go on for years without speaking. Currently we have not spoken in almost two years. One of my sisters I have not spoken to since 2007, and the other one we only speak when something bad has happened, like a death in the family. My birth brother on the other hand, is very close, but we did go about 17 years without