Becoming A First Generation College Student

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Despite living in a one bedroom apartment with my mother for my entire life, I have learned that I cannot let my background and environment alone shape who I am or how I view myself. Becoming a first generation college student can conjure its own negative connotations, but these do not apply to me. Instead of being bashful, ironically, these circumstances have given me greater anticipation to be strong and strive for excellence. At the age of about 13 I was the victim of depression and ever since then some of the effects still stay with me now. One of the main reasons why I suffered from depression is because I was mostly in the house alone, with my mom working eleven to seven shifts mostly every day. That led to me developing antisocial habits and not being able to have the experiences that someone would have with their cousins or friends. I was not able to have those play fights with siblings or go to the park and not feel alone. I was missing those common bonding activities. In addition, since many of my friends around me had their dad figure mainly in their lives I rather felt sad that I did not have one. At first I thought maybe it was just the struggles of being a teen growing up in a world where if you lived with only one parent and no father figure you were at a disadvantage. However, it was deeper than that, imagine waking up one day on an island all alone with only the clothes on your back, some coconuts around, and a small shed just enough for you to sleep in. In the Hollywood world that may sound great as far as shelter, and food. Nonetheless, bringing it back to my life obviously being all alone will represent my mom working long hours, some coconuts around will represent the little bit of food that was always in the ... ... middle of paper ... ... entrepreneurs and artists who are passionate about making a difference in the world.” “Permanence, perseverance and persistence in spite of all obstacles, discouragements, and impossibilities: It is this that in all things distinguishes the strong soul from the weak.” (Thomas Carlyle). This is a quote that I believe goes well with my story that despite all the things I have been through I have overcome those trials and tribulations striving to be a better person. I can say that I was one of the strong ones. I did not let all the obstructions, and the depression moments define who I am. I could have just been so disappointed about my life that I simply said to myself what the point of living was. Alternatively, I could have thrown away all of my faith that I am going to be someone in life. Nonetheless, I would say that I was self-motivated to not live with grief.

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