The Existential Crisis In Grendel

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In the novel Grendel the title character works throughout his whole life to understand his purpose and place in a world that constantly makes him feel like an outcast, yet gives him a role to fulfill through being the outcast, the Cain to man’s Abel, the antagonist to humanity. It is no surprise, then, that throughout Grendel’s journey he encounters serious questions about his and humanity 's existence, the meaning or lackthereof in life, and what will come of his perceived misery and tribulation experienced in life. Grendel has multiple existential crises over the duration of the novel due to this questioning of life and meaning, leading him to his eventual end. These existential crises are turning points in Grendel 's life that make him reevaluate …show more content…

Grendel comes to this idea when he has his first existential crisis in the scene where a bull continuously tries to attack him in the same fashion over and over again. This is when Grendel comes to the realization that only he exists. He says, “I understood that, finally and absolutely, I alone exist. All the rest, I saw, is merely what pushes me, or what I push against, blindly-as blindly as all that is not me pushes back” (22). Grendel is referring to the mechanical and instinctual way that the bull attacks, it is the same way the bull would attack against any threat, be it an earthquake or a bird. Grendel feels that he is the only truly sentient being in the whole world at this point, making him feel isolated, and in a way superior to every other being in the forest. He believes that he is the creator of the whole world, everything and every being in the world is simply driven by “...casual, brute enmity…” (22), and only he is the aberration to this state of mindlessness. This existential crisis sets the stage for Grendel’s later musings about life and meaning by setting up his feelings of isolation from others and his loneliness because of this …show more content…

At first, Grendel says, “...I misunderstood in the beginning: I thought it an advantage” (76). It is suffice to say that soon enough Grendel realises the true nature of the charm and assumes as to why the dragon has inflicted him with what Grendel would come to understand as more of a curse. The charm causes Grendel to feel isolated once again, and when the guard finds and attacks Grendel without provocation, Grendel comes to realise that man will always assume he is the enemy. With the charm, it is all too easy for Grendel to decide to finally fight back against man who he feels has been accusing him unjustly all this time. Grendel almost feel empowered because of the charm, and he was joyful that he now had a purpose and a place in the world. He calls himself “...Grendel, Ruiner of Meadhalls, wrecker of Kings!” (80). This existential crisis Grendel found in realising he was now nearly immortal when it came to man turns into Grendel realising and fulfilling his place in the world that the dragon had talked about. Grendel came to accept his role as man’s antagonist and becomes elated at his new found purpose in life-terrorizing

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