Walking back into my grandparent's kitchen after being gone for so many years and under the present circumstances caused a flood of bittersweet emotions that seemed to steal the very breath from my body. As my eyes combed the room, I noticed people, some I knew, some I didn't, standing in small groups of two or three, all of them wearing black and all of them trying to maintain a solemn composure by laughing at jokes that weren't funny or by remembering a past best left unremembered. The funeral had been over for hours, but like the small sucker fish that symbiotically clings to the underside of the great white shark in hopes of feeding on the shark's leftovers, everyone at the wake seemed to want to hang on, as if they too were waiting for their own great white shark to cling on to.
A feeling of remembrance, longing, and anger, all wrapped up in a neat, stinging package, seemed to grip me as I made my way to his place at the table. The sound of the shuffling of my own feet against the worn brown and black linoleum floor pounded in my ears as I ventured to the one place that, until this very day, had been off limits to all of Lee Singleton's children. The battered gray file cabinet that sat beside by grandfather's wooden Captain's chair had a double set of drawers and a heavy, somber-looking padlock. As I moved closer to his seat at the kitchen table, the cabinet cried out to me, gestured to me, as if begging me to view the contents within. Like a child attempting to shoplift his first gumball from the local general store, I nervously fumbled with the huge ring of assorted keys, hands shaking, palms sweating, until finally I found the right key and opened the padlock that protected my grandfather's surplus of financial ledgers ...
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...dn't help but cry as I read his notes, for I knew that I had never settled my debt with my grandfather, at least not monetarily. As I closed the book, I also knew that my grandfather had not made such a financial move because he felt that he would never get his money after I moved out of the house. Almost as if he knew that I would someday read his red notebook, my grandfather had kept his last transaction a secret in order to teach me his final lesson. His entire adult life had been spent dealing with finances and bookkeeping, and he had used his wealth of knowledge on the subject to teach his children not simply about money, but about life. This lesson, to give whatever possible, whenever possible, seemed to culminate the life that my grandfather led. And this last transaction made me realize that he never loaned, but gave, every time he wrote in his red notebook.
The fifty dollars I found in my dad’s wallet back then, made him seem o’ so powerful. I never doubted money’s holy strength, but now, all it is but weak, false numbers. The money needed simply to obtain the basic necessities, exceeded the realms of my feeble mind. It cast chains on my mentality, as I now hesitate to get the things I know I can afford. The money I thought would allow me to cruise through life is instead a weight on my back.
“For his first thirty-five years, Joseph Saleeby’s mother makes his bed and each of his meals; each morning she makes him read a column of the English dictionary, selected at random, before he is allowed to set foot outside.” Year thirty-five of Joseph’s life is a landmark because his mother disappears on her way to market—their country, Liberia, has been at war for five years—and never returns. After this, of course, she stops making his bed and his meals.
He owned a 30-acre farm where he grew soybean and tobacco. This time of the year, however, the vegetation lay dormant. The evening began as routinely has any night in the Dickson household. Lenny’s wife Lillian had put their three children to bed by 8 o’clock, while he sat in his favorite chair listening to the radio. By eight thirty, he dozed off. Usually, Lillian would not bother him, but about 9 o’clock, he woke up to find her frantically shaking him. “What is it?”, Lenny shouted as he stared at her, clearly startled. Lillian pointed toward the window and yelled, “There is a fire at Mr. Turner’s house”, Lenny jumped from his chair and ran toward the window. “Call the fire station,” he yelled. The Dickson home was one of the few houses in Brookwood to have a telephone. Lou Turner was an 88-year-old man who lived alone. He was the last living person in Brookwood who had actually been a slave. As a young man, he escaped to the north to volunteer in the Union Army during the War Between the States. Few people knew of his unique history. Many folks just thought of him as a nice old man and he was well loved by
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I looked around at everyone in the room and saw the sorrow in their eyes. My eyes first fell on my grandmother, usually the beacon of strength in our family. My grandmother looked as if she had been crying for a very long period of time. Her face looked more wrinkled than before underneath the wild, white hair atop her head. The face of this once youthful person now looked like a grape that had been dried in the sun to become a raisin. Her hair looked like it had not been brushed since the previous day as if created from high wispy clouds on a bright sunny day.
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A moment in time that I hold close to myself is the funeral of my grandmother. It occurred a couple of weeks ago on the Friday of the blood drive. The funeral itself was well done and the homily offered by the priest enlightened us with hope and truth. But when the anti-climatic end of the funeral came my family members and relatives were somberly shedding tears. A sense of disapproval began creeping into my mind. I was completely shocked that I did not feel any sense of sadness or remorse. I wanted to feel the pain. I wanted to mourn, but there was no source of grief for me to mourn. My grandma had lived a great life and left her imprint on the world. After further contemplation, I realized why I felt the way I felt. My grandmother still
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In the mid- to late 1800s, a group of artists challenged the conventions that governed artistic expression. These artists, later known as the Impressionists, were initially seen as vulgar and rebellious. It took years for the public and artistic community to accept them and their work. They set up their canvases outside, using wide brush strokes and vibrant colors as they focused on expression over realism.
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“Death is the debt every man must pay”, wrote Euripides. Each day we are reminded about death; a report on the television about starving children in Africa or a suicide bomber in the Middle East. Headline in the newspaper about a murder, suicide or “honor killings”; News of an untimely death from a loved one, friend, co-worker. It seems that death is everywhere. Until this essay was assigned I had never really thought about how death had affected me, or how close I was to that deceased person who had died so suddenly, sometimes without even saying goodbye. Now thinking about it I have actually been around death quite a bit in my short life so far; a long with that I have sat through many sad funerals. How close I was to that person is a whole other story though. Even when it comes to my own family I wasn’t always that close to them when they passed on because they lived in another state, or my parents weren’t very close to them so I wasn’t really ever around them enough to know them or develop an attachment.
I know you are probably wondering what this letters concerning but I anted you to know how I came to be the man you look upon as your father. You should know that in many cases money is brought upon a man through inheritance, luck, or hard work. In my case however money was brought onto me because of the hard-worker I once was. It was not to long ago that I was just an ordinary man living in San Francisco as a mining brokers clerk. In the eyes of others I was a respectable young man, clean-cut, and very intelligent, all the qualities to go fortune. However in my eyes I looked past all those qualities and just say a lonesome m morning shift that Saturday, I decided to enjoy the rest of my day with a sail through the bay, like always however this time I had ventured to far and was carried out to sea by the current. I was stuck in the middle of nowhere with all hope lost until a ship picked me up from sea. The ship was bound for London and since I had no cash on me I had to work my passage there as a sailor. When I finally reached London I was a mess. My clothes where all torn and ragged, and I had only a dollar in my pocket. I survived the first day with the single dollar but when day two had arrived I was need for food and shelter however that same day my luck was beginning to change. I was walking on the streets in search for any food I could retrieve when a man called out to me through a window. I stepped inside the house where the man had called me from and was escorted into an enormous room, which was occupied, by a group of elderly old men. Now before I continue I need to stop and explain to you some minor details that weren’t given to me before. The Bank of England once issued two million dollar bank-notes. The notes were to be used for some public transaction with a foreign country. At the time on had been used while the other note still remained in the vaults of the bank. Well earlier that day before I came into the picture two of the brothers from the elderly group were having a great arugment on the second note.
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