Summary Of The Burn Journals By Brent Runyon

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Have you ever felt “down in the dumps”? How about sad or unhappy for long periods of time? Has the thought of suicide ever crossed your mind? Between 35% and 50% of adolescents experience depression at some point in their teenage years. Brent Runyon, author of The Burn Journals, experienced a severe type of depression while in middle school. He repeatedly tried to kill himself, and his last attempt ended in third-degree burns over 85 percent of his body, and the next year in recovery at hospitals and rehab facilities. In 1991, Runyon, who was fourteen at the time, covered his bathrobe in gasoline, put it on, and lit himself on fire. In The Burn Journals, Brent Runyon experienced and emotional turning point when he tried to commit suicide by …show more content…

The main cause of Runyon’s depression was his lack of confidence in himself due to Goth subculture and his constant desire for approval from others. The Goth subculture is one in which an average adolescent is looking for acceptance among their peers. Runyon spent many hours on end wondering what others thought of him, and how he could please everyone. This constant desire, and depression that followed, shaped him into someone who followed the life style of a gothic teen. “The Goth subculture tends to attract many teens. It’s filled with individuals who feel oppressed and disillusioned with society” (C. Rutledge 2). Runyon was very discontented with his interaction with society, and never felt appreciated or wanted. The Goth subculture is filled with individuals who feel on the outside of society, and Runyon …show more content…

The lack of judgment that he felt pressured of was absent, which forced him to think on his own without others opinions clouding and shaping his perception. “It is often difficult to determine whether a teen is truly depressed.…Teens in general tend to have mood swings that can be easily confused with depression”( C. Rutledge 2). Runyon believed he was un-liked, and therefore he was less self-accepting. Many of his behaviors were due to adolescent behaviors which may have confused him into believing he wasn’t worthy to live. While in recovery he spent precious time with his family, and with that came significant moments that showed him how happy he can be. “I’m laughing so hard. I can hardly stand it. I don’t remember the last time I laughed this hard”(B. Runyon 300). Runyon expresses moments of genuine joy, something that rarely ever happened before. During his years of depression he was very dissatisfied with himself, but while he was recovering, he had the time and space needed to learn about himself and appreciate himself. “ ’ This means that you will be going back to school…No one will be able to control what they say. Do you think you’re ready? You’ll be on your own.’ What am I going to say? What am I going to say. They’re all looking at me. ‘Yes’ ”(B. Runyon 305). While he was separated from society, the threat of

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