Why I Killed: A Short Story

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It was so easy. You were so easy. To manipulate, I mean. A broken leg, a flat tyre or a lost dog. I played on your sympathy. That's what I loved about you, your kindness and your willingness to drop everything for someone else. I loved that. Loved. As in I used to love that about you. Now I can't love anything about you. Anything at all. Because this is the story of why you died. More importantly why I killed you.

I first saw you in the local store in a nameless town. I remember that day so clearly. You looked remarkably beautiful with your emerald green eyes. Those mesmerising eyes captured my soul. 5:17. 5:17 was the first time I saw those eyes but certainly not the last. I'd never seen you before, so your beauty stunned me. I watched you …show more content…

I waited for you. All I could picture when I fell asleep was your eyes. Those eyes. You weren't my first obsession. There were many girls like you in the past. My therapist says that my obsessions have resulted from a life of loneliness, as well as my OCD. These girls would never know who I am. They would never question that man walking in the same direction as them or eating at the same restaurant. Because I watched from afar. It was my hobby. Some people have plenty of hobbies, harmless hobbies. My hobby was you. But you were different. I felt more for you than I usually did with other girls. My fascination with most girls lasted for no more than a week. But I spent all hours of my day thinking of you. Nothing could distract me from your face. Permanently printed inside my head. I didn't watch from afar, I stopped at nothing to find those eyes once again. That store became my home as I sat there all day staring at the door waiting for you to come in. Until one day you …show more content…

You let me stand there and do it. You let me kill you! I killed you and you did nothing. Because you didn't know what to do and you definitely didn't expect that someone would kill someone like you, on a day like today and on a street like any other street. Instant regret. Instant regret is how I felt when you stopped breathing. When I realised that you would never open those soul-catching, emerald green eyes again. You deserved better. You deserved so much more than me. You deserved a life with happiness and a life that lasted a lot longer than 25 years. I killed you because you didn't love me back. It was selfish. I was selfish. How could I expect you to love someone like me. I would've ruined you. Hell, I did ruin you. I had to punish myself because if I didn't someone else would. I wanted my own punishment. A punishment where maybe, just maybe in another life I could apologise for everything I did to you. And there was only one thing that I would have to do to make that

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