Angie, I’m writing you today as a man that has been through a lot. Over the course of my life, I have had way too many trials and tribulations and each one has been a learning experience. Although, it may not look like I have learned anything based on my actions, I have. However, the events on 4/11/2017 and every situation since, they have been the most painful lessons to date. I was blind and didn’t see how much pain I caused you. The overwhelming emotions and loss of my family have been an eye opener for me to say the least. Seeing the stress, anger and resentments that I have caused has made me realize what I have truly lost. When I step back and look at it from the outside I ask myself,” who is feeling the most pain?” The answer is
Since the night Lamar almost passed I have thought about writing to your family every day to express how sorry I am about the pain Lamar and your family have endured since the night of his overdose.
May the love you express to each other today, always be the first thoughts during any trying times in the future.
There are many things that have molded me into the person I am today such as being born into a family with four children. With three siblings, I have been forced to be able to work out problems from stealing each other’s toys to having to rush to the emergency room to get stiches because my brother chased me around the house and I tripped. My mother, father, brother, and two sisters were all born in Pennsylvania and I am the odd ball and I was born in Adrian, Michigan. From when I was a child I always loved being involved with sports because of my competitive nature. I grew up playing soccer and having success with that but then my love changed and I began playing lacrosse and football. I started playing lacrosse in middle school and played
Today is a particularly miserable day because I have to go to a care home the home of the living dead. I had to retrieve a human called Vivian. I looked at her papers. Her life was as intricate as a Michelangelo painting; a life well lived, however every detail beautifully crafted.
I am writing this to you on the anniversary of my father's passing, out of a deep concern for your future. My desire is that, by reading this, you may avoid some of the pain that my generation has experienced. Many things have come and gone in my lifetime, for God has granted me a long 60 years. I wish to tell you all that I have experienced, before I too pass on, that you may learn from the mistakes of the past, and that our losses may not be in vain.
I am writing this letter to you because I want to share some articles that I recently found with you. Knowing the both of us, I know that we are not too into politics and such, but these articles really caught my attention and hopefully the same goes for you. I will be emailing you the link to these articles and I hope you will take some time to read over them.
I just came home from the doctor, and they told me that I was just beginning to start fighting the battle of Stage 4 Cancer. I’m pretty sure that I have enough money to sustain this horrible sickness, but it is still just a terrible situation. The fact that I’ll hopefully live, because I have the right amount of money is something that I can be thankful about. The doctor’s told me today that I will have to start cancer treatment next week. In the meantime, I need to keep my family in the loop about what’s going on with my life. I bet they’ll be heartbroken when they find out. The reaction that I’m having to this whole cancer thing right now is just absolutely awful. I’m thankful that I don’t have as much to worry about with the financial responsibilities. Thinking about someone who has cancer right now, and can’t pay for it all makes my whole
Dr. D is a cardiothoracic surgeon. He was my hero. He may well still be, even though he is a throw-back to the days when I was more concerned about science than symbolism.
From the bottom of my heart, I want to apologize for all the pain and grief that I have caused your beloved son to re-experience. My twenty-one years on this earth has been nothing but lies, pain and hurting others. I promise that I would be different, that I would be a role model to others. That where ever I go I would be a representation of love, generosity, and honesty. Yet day in and day out I found myself doing the opposite, I’m constantly in strife with my inner self.
Dear daddy, first let me start with I love you. I know you wanted a son who would rise up above you. Stand tall and be a man. Never fall and always do what you can't. It wasn't the reality. You always have to shout at me. Cuz everything you say goes in one ear and out you see. It's never on purpose. Since birth, I have felt that I'm worthless. Cursed. Never to amount to shit. But look at what I'm up against. You're amazing. People see you in me on
Thank you for acknowledging my thoughts and feelings whether they are positive or negative, justified or unjustified, right or wrong. I feel safe being myself knowing I can not be perfect and you will still love me.
Basically, the point of this letter is to thank you for one thing. Thank you for strengthening our family bond. Thank you for helping me realize just how important family is. You helped me realize how much we mean to each other. Thank you for that and only that.
In my short 16 years there have been many experiences I have encountered in life that shape who I am. My identity today. As time has passed experiences have come one after another for me to learn. What has shaped me influenced me in this short time period are many things the topic around this lies around my social construct. I am a lot of things, I am someone who looks as a shy, quite, smart, nice etc. person. Those simple qualities that make who I am have been influenced upon me and in general just who I am. What has shaped me present day is my family structure and my education the most to shape my identity.
A hero is someone who has a positive impact on your life. Heroic attributes include loyalty, honesty, and strength of character. To me a hero would be someone that you can trust, someone you enjoy being around, and someone who is outgoing. A good example of a hero would be Emma Kinney, my mom. She is very understanding, forgiving and an amazing role model to my sisters and I.
In November, I will show you my true self and show you all that is in my heart, that I can only vaguely describe to you. You captured my heart fully this year and I'm glad it was you that did it. This is just the beginning of our lifelong journey together. My first path is southwest to be with you. The words of this letter cannot fully describe how I feel about you but they are the words and the small voice of my heart. You are a one of a kind woman and I want you to know that. I cannot wait to finally have you in my arms again and declare you safe from world's harm. I cannot wait to feel your soft lips against mine. I cannot wait to feel your heartbeat. I cannot wait to look into your bright, beautiful green eyes and tell you I love you. I cannot wait to run my fingers through your long, flowing blonde hair to ease your worries.