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I did not know it at the time, but in November of 2005, I was knocking on death’s door. I was living in Naperville, IL with my girlfriend and her family. It was a few days before Thanksgiving, and the family was preparing for the holiday celebration. I was starting to feel a bit under the weather, but it was flu season.
Sure, some of us have this great confidence within ourselves about looking great, but that does not hold true for everyone. I understand the pain or disgust, or even disappointment one feels when they look in the mirror and say, “I wish I could change this or that about myself”. Although this piece is written about the author’s life, it holds meaning and connects with for many people; one only has to dig deep enough to find one. For me, it was to realize what is important in life can change, adapt and that we must explore our inner selves and find our own path in life.
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Before you met me, I was a wreck and things were pretty heavy around me. But now, together, we are a beautiful wonderful wreck as our lives have been permanently intertwined whether we like it or not. Between you and me, there is always some sort of pushing and pulling. Most of the time, it consisted of me pushing you away and you pulling me back in from the depths of my own fear and anxiety. On my part that 's what makes you perfect for me. But we weren’t perfect together, we were far from it. There always something going on with me, even when I didn’t. I was always shrouded in some sort of a lie, a protective layer of myself that I don’t let people see. I never wanted them to see how broken and fucked up I truly was. So I only let them see
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