Personal Narrative: Breaking Up With Ian

So Lisa broke up with Ian. Lisa and I start talking about seeing each other and talk about being together. We both know its early but this is what we want. Being with me is what she claims to the be the only reason she broke up with Ian. Lisa and I talk about what we want. During these talks Lisa seems overcome with love and emotion and claims that she wants to be with me and she loves me. She says that this is all she needs and she truly believes that it will get better and that she can be happy with me. We decide to become a couple and start planning the trip. At some point during all this Lisa visits Ian to try and gain some closure. We talk about how bad of an idea it is to see Ian and how it makes me feel. we talk about not making excuses

The second trip seemed a lot faster than the first. Lisa is talking Ian and playing games with him. Her playing with him just rubs it in my face that she is going to see him. Everytime she plays with him it hurts and makes me uncomfertable. When she first started I told her to be careful not to get close to him. She is actually a bit more willing to talk about things now. She thinks this is the same as any friend coming down. She doesnt think she should have to give up anyone regardless of how I feel about it. She would rather see this realtionship fall apart than to not see Ian once. Why is this chance so special? Because she feels less bad about seeing him? Because its a good excuse? I want to explain this more because its important but this is getting to hard to keep my thoughts straight. I will come back to this. Moving forward Lisa and I break up. The next day she has a therpy oppointment. She is diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Some big issues that stem from this disorder are: Problems regulating their emotions and thoughts, Impulsive and sometimes reckless behavior, Unstable relationships. That sounds super familar. Ok so now there is somthing to explain everything. This is the answer. This why it seems like you dont care. This is the reason the impulsive and reckless decisions are made. This is why we are having this issue with a relationship. This is huge news. This is somthing we can work on. So now I am actually happy. We know that Lisa has an illness that caused the impulse, caused her to not be about to regulate how she felt about it, and greatly disrupted our relationship. Wait you still dont want to do anything? Lets say you are really sick and we take you to the docter. The docter explains that you have cancer and you dont want to do anything about it. You know whats wrong. You know why you have been sick. It hasnt even done much damage! We caught it early! Still not enough? You dont want to stop it? This isnt just