Unspoken Feelings: A Tale of Love and Loss

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Force Majeure

The moment you turned eighteen, I received fourteen text messages. I swear, I could feel those words climbing down my throat, squeezing my heart and filling up my lungs. For a moment, I couldn’t breathe. I dropped my phone- and I was standing on the subway, heading downtown. An old man dressed in black to mourn his wife took a step back and shattered the screen into eight pieces. The noise shocked half the compartment into silence. I slumped down in an empty seat, next to a woman rocking a crying child. She moved away, and I barely noticed.
The point is to never leave you, Ji-Hye. Your elan has always been different than the one of an atypical girl.
You were sixteen when you wrote that, in a poem dedicated to nothing but my …show more content…

You spoke straight to the point. No other elaboration at all.
“Really?” I managed, feeling numb. My phone crashed out of my hand, and shattered on the ground.
The next day, I was at your door in the morning. We walked to school together, and it was as if nothing had ever happened.

When we graduated, you were sixteen and I was seventeen. You told me that you were going to write a poem about me. It wouldn’t be the first time, but it was strangely sweet.
The college campus was dangerous, so your mother told you to stay with your sister.
“I’ll keep him safe,” your sister said nonchalantly, and blew your mother a kiss. Jess was a cheerleader, peppy and strong. Everyone loved her, but I knew you hated her, deep down inside. She was the apple of your mother’s eyes, and the queen of all queens.
But thirteen murders wracked the campus that year. Your mother called and begged you and Jess come home, but you refused. It was all too perfect, and going to college was force majeure.
The night of your eighteenth birthday, you darted out.
Perfect night for poetry, you claimed. Your sister laughed and said you’d be fine, you were always fine. I shrugged and continued to work on a drawing of the stack of books beside your nightstand. Anna Karenina. Word Origins and Their Romantic

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