Meaning In Theodore Roethke's 'My Papa's Waltz'

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Her repetition in the last line with the “get back, back, back to you” could suggest she is referring to getting back to her father and to her husband. However, here we can see an inkling of the way she truly feels about her father. If she really felt this extreme hate towards him, why would she want to kill herself in order to get back to her father? She either misses him a painstaking amount, or feels that she has dire unfinished business with him. She then adds to this by saying that her suicide attempt was unsuccessful. But, she realized that instead of being stuck on him, she needed to find a “model” of him that reminded her of him. A man who looks like her father, making him instantly comparably evil. Then she, almost regretfully, says …show more content…

However, this is countered by his first stanza, “The whiskey on your breath/ Could make a small boy dizzy;/ But I hung on like death:/ Such waltzing was not easy. (1-4)” From the first two lines, we as the reader get the impression that his father is possibly an alcoholic. While this may be the case, Roethke also shows that despite his father’s habits, he couldn’t resist holding an unbreakable connection to him. This is apparent because this incident seemed to be recurring enough to write a poem about it. In addition, Roethke writes that he “hung on like death,” and since death is inescapable and hangs on to everyone, we can assume that as a child he never wanted to be separated from his father. He then writes, “such waltzing was not easy.” This line itself speaks to the relationship between him and his father. The “waltz” of life between the two was not easy, but it is an inseparable dance between two entities. It isn’t until the next stanza where Roethke really shows us what is happening in this poem. “We romped until the pans/ Slid from the kitchen shelf;/ My mother’s countenance/ Could not unfrown itself. …show more content…

He is unable to see him in a negative light, and doesn’t want to be separated from him. “You beat time on my head/ With a palm caked hard by dirt,/ Then waltzed me off to bed/ Still clinging to your shirt (13-16). In accordance with the narrative of this poem, “You beat time on my head” does not suggest that the father is purposefully abusive of the boy. It suggest a scenario where a drunk man waltzing would be very loose and would sometimes hit the child unknowingly. The line, “With a palm caked hard by dirt” also does much to throw the meaning of the poem off. It is assumed that his father’s hands are dirty in some relation to his alcoholism, but in reality his hands are dirty because his father often worked in a greenhouse as a farmer. This leads to the last two lines of the poem where the boys feelings about the father come full circle. When the waltz is finished, and despite the aggressive nature of the dance, the boy in the poem does not want to stop and go to bed. He remains clinging to his shirt, as well as clinging to this memory of their dance together. Perhaps these were the moments where he felt closer to his father than ever before? This poem, unlike Plath’s, does not seem to be an angry letter in hopes of coping, it is more of a reminiscent memory. It is also worth noting that in the title of this poem, Roethke uses the word, “Papa” instead of father. Not

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