Why I Was A Failure

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My parents was so happy to see me cleaned up! I cut the habits I was looking, feeling, and smelling good! They gave me a place to stay once again alsond a car because they were so proud of me withand the changes I had made. I was a failure because my mind-set was still the same deep down inside of me; and I was just looking for the opportunity to do what I wanted again— and that was to get high while and hanging out. That’s one of the main foolish reasons why I had come back home to Baltimore. Now that I had accumulated some much money, more than I ever had done from working;, I decided to do the same things that I was previously doing foolishly hoping for different results. This time when I was exposed to my parents I had to leave the house and they let me keep the car so I would sleep in the car at night. I failed because I allowed myself to get right back in that pool that took everything away from me. I didn’t appreciate the hard work that I did for three3 months to stabilize myself which gave me some type of leverage and a cleaner lifestyle. It dawned on me! I cut my habits for three 3 months and was able to save more money in the bank than what I had worked for in the past with all of my jobs!
Going through the withdrawal stage wasn’t what made me a failure, it was the fact that I accepted this decision I had made knowing what was done to me before when I chose this lifestyle that I was now returning to. I could have had my withdrawal phase in New York, seek the necessary help; and continued to progress ing with no reasons to come back home. Now my choice was returning to that dark pit and that was one reason why that decision is what made me athe failure. The people I surrounded myself with was bringing me down weather ...

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... theis decisions I had made. It took me some time to realize that I could make changes and succeed. I was deeply scarred because of this negative view of myself. I didn’t know it was failure that caused this deep aching pain within me that beat so much grief in my mind, heart, and life. It took time to somehow build myself up again; and at the time I didn’t understand that I can turn my failure into a successful future; and you could to!. More so I didn’t know that I could learn from the times I had failed. Learn from every decision you make and you will continue to learn and prosper. Be passionate about your desire but don’t let your emotions control your ability to learn from whatever choices you make. When you keep your mind open to learn, failure becomes somewhat like motor oil. It will lube your engine so you can run smoothly while being fueled by your success.

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