Turning Failure Into Success

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In my first years of life, I was the diva. I was the star. I was the only one that my mother ever paid any attention to. I was the bomb. Although my father worked very long days to provide my mother and me with a means of sustenance, there was plenty of love from my mom to nurture me as I grew into a bubbly young girl. Entering kindergarten at 4 years of age, I was similar to every other little kid. I was rambunctious, playful, naughty, and unstoppable. If I did not fall sleep in class, I would play with my dolls as the teacher lectured. Sure enough, I was reprimanded and given “time out” every time. But it was all right. My grades were average but I scored high enough to please my parents.

I lived in a wonderland of games, toys and friends until a certain examination came my way. It was my first real math exam that changed everything. My father, recently returned from New York City, did all he possibly could to train me in the ways of addition and multiplication but to no success. I failed that exam. I added instead of multiplying. I got a grade of 74 in math so I missed my shot at becoming one of the Top Ten. I finished 14th in my class.

At first, failure was none of my business: I did not really care how high or low my grades were. But when I suddenly experienced what failure was like, I did not like it one bit. In fact, a fear started to grow within me. It was like a hideous, chupacabra-like alien had landed on my territory and I felt I had to do everything to get rid of it. I studied mathematics very hard: harder than I ever had before. I studied how to divide 9 by 3 and 8 by 4, even if I so despised numbers to my very core. I did not like them because they made things abstract to me. Things which I knew became unknown w...

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... that hated math. It was the ‘me’ that did not care about anything, not even my parents’ happiness and expectations. It was the old ‘me.’ Of course, I could not get rid of something that was essentially ‘me.’ That was utterly impossible. So I put her to sleep, that spoiled carefree little girl. We were one, yet we were different. The alien was not failure itself, but the self that accepted defeat without trying. I do not like that self but I am grateful to her for teaching me the meaning of hard work and perseverance. Now, I know that to taste the sweetness of a corn cob, you must first toil in the planting of the corn seed. I thank my parents, my teachers, my friends, and everyone who defined me as person. Thank you for teaching me why ‘trying’ is important, to me and to the ones I love.

My ‘end’ turned out to be my ‘beginning.’ My failure lead to my success.

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