The Reason I Am So Fierce

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A cranium-cracking shriek knocked me out of my reverie and my jaw jerked open reflexively as I staggered backward. Within seconds, I found myself trapped in a prison of multi-colored legs, my ears filled by a cacophony of wails, “tsk-tsks,” and angry reprimands. Confused, I glanced left and right for a viable escape route. Finding none, I plunked myself down on the floor in defeat. Downshifting into survival mode, I focused passively on the red-tipped finger wagging inches from my nose. To me, Sarah was exotic. With a solitary dimple hovering near the left corner of her mouth, the softest brown hair as springy as a slinky and chocolate-colored eyes to match, she looked like an exquisitely-drawn children’s-book character magically come to life. Of French and Turkish descent, Sarah was, indeed exotic, by the white-bread standards of my southern hometown. To Sarah, I was a pest. Younger, prone to “disruptive” mischief, and still struggling to ascend the left slope of a few developmental bell curves, I had nothing to offer a girl as elegant and picture-perfect as Sarah. Kenny did, though. Handsome, precocious, and possessing a more-than-ample abundance of confidence, Kenny was a force. How I longed, in my simple two-year-old way, to be as strong, as cool, and as funny as Kenny. Sadly, it was not to be. My pathetic fate was to serve as Kenny’s favorite prop for proving his fortitude to Sarah. Sweet, meek Maeve was the fourth leg of our figurative table. A spectacled white-blonde with pigeon toes, apparently muscle-free legs and a pot belly, Maeve was kind to all and friend to none, which, even then, I perceived as a fate more unfortunate than my own. In the hierarchy of daycare, Maeve and I were the serfs. We were the servants, the p... ... middle of paper ... ...the only weapon I had at my disposal: my teeth. The warm, slightly sweet flesh was shockingly soft, and I was transfixed. If not for the speed of my victim’s ear-splitting protest, I now fear that I could have drawn blood, not fully aware of how deep my incisors were plunging. Noise. Tears. Red fingernails. Mom legs everywhere. The immediate aftermath of my crime is a blur of quick impressions. But I remember with crystal clarity what happened the next day, and those that followed. That bite earned me the respect of my daycare peers. Do I regret biting Sarah? Being a relatively civilized and conscientious person, hurting others is not a means of retaliation to which I now typically resort. Yes, I am, and I was sorry. But the fallout of the incident provided me with a simple philosophy to live by in situations when I feel diminished or unfairly accused: Be fierce.

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