Reflective Essay About Religion

My belief in God was fading to nearly nothing by my junior and senior year. I was a jerk to most people around me, and I started to change that going into my junior year. I became a much kinder person. I was always cocky and began to be humbler and kinder to everyone around me. Upon realizing that I could do this without religion I believed that morality was all relative. I thought that everyone has a natural sense of what is right and wrong, and being a good person had nothing to do with religion. This new found belief brought me further from belief in God. I figured that I had become a much better person and that was all my own doing. I began digressing from the view that there was any need for a God at all. All senior students at my school

The next night was life-changing and I finally learned the big Kairos secret that I had heard so much about. We arrived late one night at the retreat center’s basement, and took our usual seats. The room was fairly dark, lit only with candles on each table. Three teachers were seated at a banquet table in the front of the room with a pile of envelopes in front of them. They began opening letters and reading them. These letters were written by the parents of each student. The letters were revealing and left each of us feeling vulnerable. They openly showed us the love each and every parent has for their child. This love was surreal, and the repetitive theme was unconditional love. At first, I was mortified. I knew my mom and I have had a rough relationship and I was scared. I was not used to feeling vulnerable, and the uncertainty and discomfort of the situation made me angry that my letter would be read out loud. To me this was the worst thing that could have happened on Kairos. Eventually, those feelings subsided and turned into overwhelming gratitude and regret. Gratitude for how lucky my classmates and I were for the love we received, and regret for the way I had treated my mom for the last few years.