Before you met me, I was a wreck and things were pretty heavy around me. But now, together, we are a beautiful wonderful wreck as our lives have been permanently intertwined whether we like it or not. Between you and me, there is always some sort of pushing and pulling. Most of the time, it consisted of me pushing you away and you pulling me back in from the depths of my own fear and anxiety. On my part that 's what makes you perfect for me. But we weren’t perfect together, we were far from it. There always something going on with me, even when I didn’t. I was always shrouded in some sort of a lie, a protective layer of myself that I don’t let people see. I never wanted them to see how broken and fucked up I truly was. So I only let them see Love is a strange thing, and as embarrassing and uncomfortable as it is to admit, I love you. I know my life will never be the same after you. No matter what state of mind I’m in, I can always tell when you 're in the room. It 's like the air changes or the ongoing background music playing in my mind changes or something weird like that. You make me want to do weird things like tell you all the crazy things that went on in my mind. But at the same time, you make me forget. When we were together, it was like there was nothing wrong with the world. I felt like I had the strength to take on any of the on-going problems I had. The days we weren 't arguing that is. We were never something that made sense. We were either fighting or loving. However, we were never not together even if we weren’t. A big part of our relationship was us being on and off. Our on and off relationship isn 't a thing that most people dream of. In fact, most people fear it. Maybe because of its reckless nature, or the fact that there is just something waiting to blow up in our faces everyday threatening you to leave me or vice versa. But I know that I love you, and all the uncertainty you bring into my life. At this point, I wouldn 't care if you broke up with me and stopped talking to me for a month as long as I knew you were coming back. Whilst at the same time, I feel that it’s best you stay He was fine. It was like nothing between us ever actually happened. You already had a replacement. I felt immense amounts of pain. Luckily, I am used to the pain. More or less, I 'd say I 'm numb to it. You never know how lucky you are to spend your life with your soulmate until you can 't. I 'm a mess without you. I miss every damn thing about that boy with the kind eyes. I even missed the way he kicked me out of bed at night. I 've already reverted to the way I was before I met you. I 've made a lot of back tracks in my progress. Not a day goes by without me thinking of what would be the best way to end myself. Walking alone is a struggle, because I always have the strong urge to throw myself in front of a car in hopes that it would kill me or at the least give me amnesia so I could forget about all these memories that are constantly haunting me. A lot of the time I just wonder to myself what would happen if I let these four walls crush me, because within these four walls all I see is you and me. I know that if I hear your sweet voice again, I would be fine and back to normal. Even if it was you just telling me that you 've had enough of our love I would be okay with
Just like in the song, I find myself trying to move on, but I end up feeling hollow and crawling back to him. I know my fear and mixed emotions are draining him of everything he has. This song hits home for me in so many ways and makes me feel horrible. I don't purposely want to cause pain to anyone, especially not to someone I care about. He is so certain about what he wants, but our past is holding me back from knowing what I want. I do...
The time I accomplished something would have to be ever since I got a job myself, when I told my mom about the job she didn’t like the idea she wanted me to focus on school and helping her out at the house and taking care of my sisters. She wanted me to not worry and just worry about school but I see a lot of people my age working and getting money they earned by working and I got interested myself and for me it didn’t matter where I worked as long as I did.
One thing that really bothers me is how much I changed. I used to play games all day, not focus on school, wouldn't get in serious trouble, and was very innocent compared to my present day self. There are cons and pros of my past self compared to how I am currently. I am more happy of how I am now then I am before. As time changes, so do I and I can not stop that. What’s done has already been done and can’t be changed so you always have to look towards the future and never the past. The past will not definite who you are today unless you let it. I would have never expect that I would be transferred to a continuation high school in my freshman year. It is a bad thing to many people, but I am thankful that I am sent to it because I will learn
I knew the moment was coming, but I wasn’t ready for what I was about to be told, no matter how prepared I was to hear it, I wasn’t ready to accept it. I had received a text from my mom while I was sitting in my room, “come outside your dad and I have something we need to tell you”.
The story about I Martranika Gross, called changing my life. It all begin with many ideals that I had in mind to become while changing my life so my daughter will fix in. First was continue my education at Strayer University and a journey to follow. Next, becoming a role model with a pathway lay out for my daughter, a showing her not to stay you can’t to become successful. Finally, overcome obstacles first you have to have faith within yourself, and the key word is knowledge.
Every day that I wake up and every night before I fall asleep, I thank God that we met, because without you I would be nothing. Through the hard times you have held my hand, through the rough times you have held me close to you, and through the ups and downs you have stayed by my side. What else could I ask for? When I am sick you tuck me in. You have brought back the person that everyone loved and have helped me learn to be the person I always wanted and knew I could be.
The one person who has influenced my life the most is my dance teacher from middle school, Mrs Linden. Mrs Linden is the dance teacher at Sunnymead Middle School, and has taught there for many years. She was my dance teacher for all three years that I was there, as she inspired me alot. My life has changed for the better since I met her because she has taught me to fight for what I want and to not give up on something I love which is dance. She believed in me when many did not.
Although I am only sixteen years old and in the eleventh grade of high school, many things have influenced me and caused me to be the person that I am today. I hope that these things will continue to help me be a better person and influence me as my life continues. Some of the things that have influenced me have been church, my family, my friends, and school.
It was new years day, and the sun had just arisen when I felt this feeling inside me saying, what am I doing here, but even more importantly, how would I get out. The realization was scary, but I know that without it, my life would not have been at where it is now. I feel that with this experience, my mentality grew and now I see the world in a different way. It all started in high school, where I felt that all the attention I got during that time was for the façade that was reverted to the people, and not the real me because no one knew the real me. I had to lie about everything I had done and who I am just because one lie lead to another. The area I grew up in has really impacted my life in both positive and negative ways. For one, it helped
My stomach weakens with a thought that something is wrong, what would be the answer I could have never been ready for. I call my best friend late one night, for some reason she is the only person’s voice I wanted to hear, the only person who I wanted to tell me that everything will be okay. She answer’s the phone and tells me she loves me, as I hear the tears leak through, I ask her what is wrong. The flood gates open with only the horrid words “I can’t do this anymore”. My heart races as I tell her that I am on my way, what I was about to see will never leave my thoughts.
When I try and think of a specific time or life event that made an impact on my life I think of the day I had each of my children. For any mother this is a similar day she will look back on as an event that changed her life. My youngest son Oliver has a lot of complex medical issues, and has given me quite a few life changing events in his short 18 months. Oliver was born on January 15, 2015 on a military base in Laundstul, Germany. We named him Oliver because it means unique and dignified. We chose the name after we discovered he had a cleft Lip. He defiantly fits that description. Oliver has been in and out of the hospital since he was born, from the time he was born he had difficulty absorbing his food. He would eat and eat, but not gain
"Isn't it funny how you can think you're completely over someone, but if you drive past his house, stumble upon a meaningful song you both shared, or even catch a glance of him on the street, just in an instant, it can change all that, and you start to remember the pain. And that hollow space is feeling more and more like the Grand Canyon with every second that goes by. But you bury these feelings deep down, so deep that you're sure no one will be able to tell. To the outside world, you smile and act like nothing is wrong or will ever be. Everything's just perfect. And you go along your merry way, all the while home realizing how much you do miss him, how much you still love him... and it sticks with you for days, weeks, maybe months, until fate decides to hand you another one of these unexpected moments. And then you finally understand the worst feeling in the world is when the person you love the most is standing right next to you, yet you can never have them."
I remember the day as if it were yesterday; I was sitting in my sixth grade classroom deliberately packing my belongings away in my jam-packed locker. As I reached for my belongings, I endured all of the eventful memories that took place in that school and in my home state. All the friendships that I made would abolish. My friends sobbed as I sobbed. I anticipated this very day for about six months. As all of my belongings were finally packed, I gave my final good-byes and headed out. The mixed emotions trembled through my head. I became exceedingly furious then miserable then furious again. Hatred filled my eyes as we drove farther away. I became bitter with my family and secretly blamed it all on my
Some memories are best forgotten, but it takes courage to go through them. Often, I wish to forget the day when I almost lost my parents in a tragic car accident. As my world came crumbling down, I prayed and hoped that the nightmare would soon end. I endlessly fought the sense of helplessness, isolation and fear of the uncertainty. I was 19 and clueless. Nevertheless, I sailed through these dreadful days and welcomed my parents home after six long months. In the months that followed my parent’s return, I juggled between taking care of my parents, graduating college and adjusting to my new job. Almost 10 years later, this dark phase still has a phenomenal impact on me. Perhaps, because this specific experience transformed me into a grateful,
There has been so many life changing experiences in my life it is hard to keep dealing with it. Here recently I have been losing a lot of very important people I love or they are getting hurt in some awful way. I have lost my first wonderful cousin, Chris, my brothers wife, Molly. Also Grant, my sister 's boyfriend, is hurt really bad still today. I can not stand seeing many of my loved ones hurt and I do not know how much more people I can lose.