Luckily, I just found myself writing journal again recently. However, my journal ... ... middle of paper ... ... me to stay away from distractions. As I am so easily distracted, I like a quiet study place. In addition, I need to stay really focused to study or analyze anything. Hence, I am not good at all at solving problems in group.
I don’t want to not sound academic so I have to sit for a while at my computer and think of words to say. Another weakness I feel I have is that I waste time. I tend to just sit at my computer screen and feel lost. That is a waste of time for me. I need to find a way where I can just sit at my computer and write an entire paper at one time and then revise it.
I’ve never considered myself to be comfortable with writing in general. For example, I always had a hard time telling if I needed a comma in a sentence or not. Sometimes it was obvious, but it seems more confusing most of the time. I would say that most people would not enjoy writing as much as I do, but I think that it is because they find writing requires a great deal of effort. In my past experiences, it would take me a significant amount of time to figure out what I want to write about in the beginning.
For me, writing is frustrating. Many times I have trouble writing about anything. The main reason why I have so much trouble when writing, is because I don 't concentrate on my work enough. Even when I try my hardest to concentrate, my mind seems to wonder around to a different direction towards another thought. After that, I forget all about my work and just think about various things such as people, places, and different times I 've had in the past.
I struggled with all of it, and spend much time dreaming at night seeing my fingers typing my thoughts on a keyboard, rather than the dreamy pictures of the events in my head. I think it is safe to say it was a time of anxiety. I struggled to point my writing in the direction that I was able to support my thinking effectively. Getting started, creating a specific area of concentration was extremely difficult. I settled on focusing my research on cooperative learning in the classroom and creating a study to support academic gains in the students I worked with.
The anxiety of what the outcome might be has always hindered my thinking and has thus led to my procrastination. I often feel that the rules that accompany writing is frustrating, like keeping up with the word limit, grammar and time management. However, I feel that the environment where I did most of my writing is mainly responsible for my writing toda... ... middle of paper ... ... hate for writing and others think so too. Fahmy states, “She is not so confident about her writings” (2014, p.1). This statement is relevant.
I do not talk very much in classes or try to socialize with people I do not know. When I am in classes, I tend to sit in the back and observe the interactions of my classmates and my teachers. In classes, I only talk if I have something to say or if the teacher makes us do something, like a project. Other than those instances I usually like to stay in the back and read or listen to music. I can tell that me being an “introvert” gets on my mother’s nerve, like when we are at a restaurant I tend to read a book on my phone instead of talking to her about my day or about anything else she wants to discuss.
Then on the nights I do not read, I’ll play on my phone, check Instagram, and watch some Netflix on my computer. On those nights, I find myself going to sleep a lot later than nights I read. So I was not quite sure if my drowsiness was due to how boring the book was, the lighting of my room, or the bright lighting from my phone. I decided to educate myself more on the negative effects of computer and cell phone use before bed. Research shows that cell phone use before bed is bad for sleep.
Regretting for not taking advantage of the opportunities given to me and not taking reading and writing more seriously really affected me. To this day the thought of the word essay reminds me laying down in my room on my black carpet, my computer open with open office open, and a puzzled look imprinted on my face not knowing where or how to start. Reading the agenda over and over trying to get a better understanding of what needs to be
Lately I haven’t been jogging because I sleep very late from loads of homework in class. I am not able to wake up early. If I do, I’ll try to finish of my homework. I think other opportunities I can’t get to be physically active is taking short breaks doing my studying session. Staying in a seat for a couple of hours is bad for the body.