Tristan Monologue

"Why do I, and everyone I love, pick people who treat us like we're nothing?"

"We accept the love we think we deserve." I recite the words along with Logan Lerman's character, Charlie...

It's saturday night, about a week and a day since the audition.. I've been avoiding Tristan the entire week ever since that awkward moment happened between us. Tristan, however, would not stop trying to talk to me. He's even been hanging out with Scarlett to get her to convince me to talk to him..

I mean, I know that I'm overreacting but I just don't know what to do.. I'm not mad, I just don't want to get hurt again.. When Tristan touched my cheek, I just felt defenseless..

No stop.. Just don't think about him...

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I just finished watching The

Anyway, I got to go.. Got an important date today."

"DUDE. TELL ME EVERYTHING WHEN YOU GET BACK!" Scarlett laughed and then hung up on me, leaving me to call Tristan myself.
I scrolled up my contacts and saw Tristan's name right beside the heart he put.

I wonder if he still has a heart next to my name.. Probably not.

After a few minutes, I swallowed up my nerves and called Tristan. It rang a few times and I actually thought he wouldn't answer but at the last ring, he did.

"Hello?" Tristan's voice sounded bored and I freaked out.

"Uh Hi. It's me Violet."

"Violet! I wanted to say that I'm sorry for doing what I did.. I mean it was really stupid of me." I know that he was apologizing and I should be happy but I felt like someone dropped my heart when he said that trying to kiss me was stupid.

"Oh uh... It's no problem. Yeah, we should just forget it happened. I'm sorry too.. Can we be friends again?"

Tristan was quiet for a moment before responding.. "Friends.. Yeah uh, that would be nice."

I quickly changed the topic. "So what's up?"

"Doing my shitty homework."

"Tell me about it. I had 7 hours of homework Tuesday.."

"Damn.. You know what? I think we both need a break.. You wanna go out

But before I could call Tristan, I was interrupted by a car honking. I saw Tristan in his car and I walked to the car and entered. I couldn't help but smile at just the sight of him and thankfully, he returned the smile..

"Thanks for opening the door for me," I joked.

"I would've done it, honest. But since we're just friends, I figured I should act a little dicky.. Is it working?"

"Yes it's working. Just out of curiosity, what would you do if it was a date?" I really hope he doesn't take it the wrong way, I'm just curious.

"I can't tell you that. It's suppose to be a sort of serendipitous moment."
I laughed at that and smiled at Tristan for his word choice.

"Yes you can! We're friends so you can tell me."

"I'm not telling you, Violet. It would ruin my entire plan to win your heart." A hundred butterflies erupted and multiplied in my stomach when he said that.

He wants to win my heart?

I started to blush but then my thoughts started to shit again.

He's kidding, stupid.

I pretended that Tristan's words didn't even phase me when I responded. "Ha. Ha. Very funny, Tristan."

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We finally arrived at the movie theater and I was really happy to finally get away from all the troubles in my life with