The certainty of doubt

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Everyone makes mistakes. Whether intentional or accidental, a mistake is a mistake, and one often tries to better it. My amma always told me, “It only takes one mistake for people to call you bad, but a hundred good deeds for someone to say you are good.” For some reason, people haven’t applied this “virtue” to St. Thomas the Apostle. He has been branded as “Doubting Thomas,” the one who didn’t believe until he saw the risen Christ in front of him and put his hands in his wounds. Why do we let this one act of Thomas define him? On further observation, it will become apparent that St. Thomas did have a strong faith in Christ, a faith that drove him until his death. He had faith in Christ when none of the Apostles did; he was even ready to go die with Christ. He had a passionate love for Christ, and a deep relationship with Christ that one can only hope to achieve. Sure St. Thomas doubted, just as we have at times, but he also believed, and that with an intensity that we can only hope to match.
First, when Thomas said, “Let us go…and die with Him” (John 11:16) He meant it with all his heart. Jesus had decided to return to Bethany for Lazarus had died. The Apostles were very nervous about this. They had just fled the area because Jesus was being threatened, and returning seemed like facing death, like suicide (The New Theological Movement). Despite this, St. Thomas remained steadfast in his faith and urged the Apostles to stay with Jesus even in almost certain death. He was the only Apostle who was completely ready to go with Jesus, and this shows how close a relationship he had with Jesus. Jesus was not only his teacher, but also his friend, so he wouldn’t hear of Jesus returning to Bethany by himself. Death was a possibility? So ...

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... that point, but Thomas did, and he believed it completely.
A mistake is a mistake, and one often tries to better it. After Christ’s resurrection and ascension, Thomas’ love, faith and dedication to Christ is strong and unwavering, a faith so strong that it converted groups of people that still thrive today, their population in millions. We call, no branded, Thomas as “Doubting,” but was he really? Is it so bad to say that he refused to summon up hope only for it to be snatched away from him, so he would not have to relive the death of his close friend and teacher? Would we not have done the same? If anything, we as Catholics of 2012 should only be immensely thankful to Thomas. Because of him, Jesus gave us the ultimate compliment. “…Do you believe me because you see me?” said Jesus to Thomas, “Happy are those who believe without seeing me.” (John 20:29)

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