Many people don't want to remember the bad things but I want to remember it because whatever I did is on the past and you must learn from it and move on. Not only that but my mistakes changed my mentality of the way I see things. I want to remember all the fun things I did, all the stressful moments of studying, I want to remember even the teachers that made my days somehow more difficult. You need to live your life to the fullest. Times passes and you can't go back, but you got to admit to yourself what changed you and what made you become to the person you are.
I have learned to not dwell on the past or mistakes because they will only bring you further down and we all make mistakes. I have learned to cherish the people that care about me. If this is just a one piece of knowledge I will learn in my lifetime I am actually kind of excited for the other ones even though they might not always be the way you want.
I yelled at them, ignored them, and occasionally did the opposite they told me too. At the time, I thought that made me better than them, but in the end, it got me nowhere. Soon I entered high school and my bratty preteen-self calmed down. However, my parents became stricter on my grades because there was a big milestone that would be coming up in a few years, getting accepted into college. My parents made it very clear that if I did not get a large scholarship to any university, I would have to go to the local community college.
Self-esteem is a confidence and satisfaction in oneself, which should be present in one’s daily life in order for him/her to believe that he/she have the ability do anything. I have to admit I have a very low self esteem and lack of self confidence due to the people around me and my family being a huge part of it. Last semester, I was told to drop out of school and stay home for next six months because they want me to pick a major that I’m not satisfied with. In those six months, I was mentally tortured by my own parents, told that I was good for nothing and that Im the worst daughter they could ever have. I used to wonder what is it that I’ve done so wrong that I’m a disgrace to the family.
I did the bare minimum at school just to get that passing grade. As I entered high school, there was a fear that this might be somewhat challenging. That fear quickly went away. Attending a high school within a lower economical area of the city, I was left to my free will. Of course the words of my mother were always in the back of my mind, but how was I to comprehend it?
I tried to no avail, to relay to her that our school is a caring envi... ... middle of paper ... ... that gray areas are necessary, but I maintain that I will allow my conscience to be my guide and not rule on emotion or pressure but on character and integrity. Finally, it is Leaders responsibility to ensure that fairness is experienced by all they supervise. I come across countless situations that are not fair on a daily basis and tire of hearing others say that fairness is not guaranteed. Yes, that may be true but it is necessary for the success of all involved. Ethical leaders will face many challenges in today’s society.
I had no one can o show how to be a man I had to learn it as I go and made a lot of mistakes that probably could have been avoided. That won 't be my son cause I can show the proper of carry yourself as man when dealing with women and just life in general. I hope to make difference in his life for the good and not the bad cause I don 't want him to bring to people like I did cause I felt some much pain and anger. Now I begin this new chapter in my life that will bring new meaning to it and allow me to change the way I view myself. I want to become a man that people respect and admire for being a good father,son, and just all around good person.
A New Beginning When meeting someone new you always get scared or have a little nerves bundled up inside. It’s even like that when someone is born, like a cousin or a new sibling that’s how it was for me having my new baby sister being born, I didn’t think I was ready for a baby sister. Even since I was already graduated and my brother not too far behind me graduating this year. It would literally be a handful for her to start over, my aunt had told me it would be better for my mom because she’s lonely. But I guess my mom wanted to started fresh she was missing having little ones running around she wanted my brother and I to be little again but that couldn’t happen.
If you lack differentiation of self, making decisions and doing things on your own is hard or too complicated and leading you to always depend on someone. The second concept that is important to me is also how he describes Family projection process. Basically is it a transmission experience; when parents react and respond differently to each child, depending on circumstances and situations that they are in. For example, the son will most likely get more punished and the daughter may have more restrictions. In my personal experience I was the oldest out of my brothers so I was expected not to yell at my brothers, most cases I would get yelled at for yelling at them.
I was afraid of such a big change in my life and was very disappointed that nobody told me when I was away because they knew I would go crazy over it, but they thought it would be a good surprise for me. It was entirely the opposite. In the beginning, this experience was negative because I was afraid of it being such a big difference just because it meant a change in my life it scared me, this was a change I have never faced before, having to leave all my childhood friends, changing school, getting used to a new place, and graduating from high school with people I had never met before. As well as my friends, there were all of my pets and my horses which have been a main factor in my life since I was a little girl, and I had never experienced living without them when staying in my old home. I was really sad about this and it made me even more homesick.