I am not likely to become an entrepreneur because I am not good at personal planning. On the Locus of Control it was determined that I am internally focused meaning that I am self-motivated. I do believe that we are responsible for our future, but I am also a little lazy and often find it very difficult to do something that I do not want to do if it is not required of me. Working with Others Communication Skills I have a probing communication style. When I am face to face with people I often forget material I wanted to mention if it is not written down.
I try to not come off as rude or mean, I want to seem courteous as possible. Motivated Do I consider motivation a positive character trait? I chose motivation because this is a trait I must work on. If there is nothing to push me, then I lose interest in my work. For example, when it came to SAT’s, I was so lazy and unmotivated to study that’s why I didn’t study as much.
It what has caused me to be who I am right now, a lazy student just trying to get by. But that’s not what I want to do, it definitely won’t help me out in the future but that is all thanks to procrastination. It doesn’t end with me at all. Countless before and after me have face the horrors of procrastination. They all face the five stages of loss and grief.
I have a very low self-esteem and I always have. I have never thought I was pretty enough, thin enough, or good enough. This may be something I will always struggle with but I have been move toward the me I have always wanted to be. I have supportive and loving friends that encourage me all the time, which is a wonderful factor pushing me forward. I tend to suppress my emotions because I do not like any attention on myself and I would rather help others with what is going on in their lives than talk about what is going on in mine.
I would sometimes feel guilty if I rewarded myself as I believed that even if I was done with my assignments, that I should still sit down and study for any future tests. Looking at other engineers around me who were working all day, made me doubtful about rewarding myself. Another reason why I sometimes couldn’t reward myself, is that I sometimes wanted to save money that I could use to spend on something more valuable. Consequently, I ended up asking myself why am I working and that there was no point in working hard. Not only was I not rewarding myself by having fun, but I felt like I was not getting rewarded academically.
I have always been impatient and it would be extremely difficult for me to master being patient. One of Aristotle’s points about being a virtuous person is not doing everything well but doing what you do well and doing it consistently. Patience is defined as “good natured tolerance of delay or incompetence.” (www.dictionary.com) for me, this definition does the word a world of just... ... middle of paper ... ...s outside and we ended up waiting for and hour for him to come back. I was going to flip out and tell my mom I wasn’t going to do this and that we should just leave and come back tomorrow but I remembered this essay and my goal of becoming more patient. So I put on my headphones and I went for a walk to find my cat, when I finally found him I was so excited for myself, I really felt like I accomplished something.
It is amazing how one little thing can affect your whole life. Payton completely changed my life and my outlook in life. I don't get mad or upset with people as easy as before it isn't worth if they really are a good friend. I have never been more motivated to do the things I want and need to do now. I have learned to not dwell on the past or mistakes because they will only bring you further down and we all make mistakes.
Criticism is the inspection and judgment of the merits and demerits of a work. Criticism never seems good and there is nothing pleasant about it. Even the critique having best intentions still stings. All of us like to be right, accomplished and correct and when we are not, it still hurts to hear the truth, no matter how nice others critic tries to be. But if you are one of those who struggles to improve themselves, you will value the direct feedback no matter how uncomfortable and painful it is.
As a maturing young adult I am always trying to improve my weaknesses in my personality. I do tend to be intolerant when it comes to ignorance. If someone is taking the time to talk about a topic in which they have no knowledge or have done no research I quickly write them off and dismiss what they say. I am learning this a bigger issue in my life than I thought as in college I am put in to many group work assignments. When someone in my group does not participate or does not think about what they are saying my first reaction is to get frustrated with the individual.
I am one of them. As I write this now I 'm realizing that I don 't tell people how I truly feel and I tolerate many things, making me passive aggressive and avoidant, which is exactly what bothers me from other people . The truth is, this is about being honest and facing rejection. The fear of rejection is so deeply ingrained in us that it can mask itself as many things, like righteousness, "being concerned", perfectionism, or avoidance, but it hurts people and creates mistrust. I tiptoe around people so much that I created this bubble around me that others see but can 't penetrate.