Symptoms And Symptoms Of A Anxiety Disorder

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About three months ago I had a traumatic event happen to me I would not like to go into details but it was not pleasant and will leave a terrifying sight in my head that I will never be able to get rid of. This event made me get diagnosed with a Generalized Anxiety disorder. Because I kept having flash blacks and was not able to think about anything other than this event. And every time I in depth re think about it I begin to experience panic attacks. The symptoms I would show would be restlessness, trembling, brain fog, intense fear of dying, sweating, dizziness, etc. But as you can tell it’s not a pleasant experience. I had these panic attacks every day for about four months varying from 2-4 times a day, I got one every day right before I was going to bed and it would last until I was too tired for it to keep going on and I would just fall asleep from exhaustion. It actually got so bad one night I decided to go to the emergency room and get checked out during one of my panic attacks. I got blood work done and everything came back exceptional and they gave me some drugs and sent me on my way. I hate taking medication because I don’t like the way it makes me feel like a zombie when trying to do every day activities. It’s a helpless feeling to know that there is nothing the doctors can do to prevent you from having these attacks other than giving you drugs that make me feel high. I don’t want to feel high I want to feel normal and productive. This disorder began to take over my life in a negative way, I began to feel too anxious to do everyday tasks that I used to be able to do like walk my dog, go to school, talk on the phone, and just be productive. I was in a dark place for a good two months. I finally knew that I had to ask fo... ... middle of paper ... I wasn’t the only person in the world struggling with this mental illness. Sitting in my room sobbing myself to sleep, I thought I was the only person who was feeling this pain and suffering. That also helped me realize that I was going to be ok and it just takes a little time and coaching to get over these bumps in my life. This is where I stopped my paper. I could have gone much farther but my attacks and anxiety came back even worse and I actually said yes to medicine it was that bad. I’ am on lorazepam now and it does help but I feel loopy sometimes and like I said in the earlier bits of the story, I hate feeling like that. I wish I could do everything natural and not have drugs to make me feel any different. I’m doing better now, it was just like a relapse thing drug addicts go through. Hopefully I can continue to keep on the right track and beat this thing!
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