Suicide: The Motives And Inner Thoughts

People commit suicide because they feel they have no other choice or way to handle their

problem. They feel that this is the only way out. Everyone knows this but everyone doesn’t

know what goes through a persons mind during and after they decide to make the absolute

decision.

Last year on the night of the Halloween dance, a student from Washington High had a

terrible fight with her boyfriend. She saw him kiss another girl at the dance and became enraged.

The first thing she did was try to talk to him about it in a calm rational manner, but being the

inconsiderate jerk he was, he ignored her and walked away every time she confronted him. As the

night came closer and closer to ending, the more depressed she became. It wasn’t her fault he

hurt her but as much as her friends tried to help her, she became more depressed and angry with

her boyfriend. There was absolutely nothing anyone could do to make her realize that she didn’t

need him to be happy, after all, there were never any happy moments shared between the two

during the relationship. She just didn’t want to let go of him. When she started to leave that night

things just got even worse. He stopped her in the parking lot to tell her that he was going to tell

everyone that she was a “whore” and that he would make up any story he wanted to in order for

people to believe what he was telling them. (They hadn’t even had a sexual relationship.) Her

friends drove home with her and told her to cheer up as she got out of the car. For the first time

since she was born, her parents weren’t home to comfort and protect her. This is when she

decided to end her problem for good. She took off the costume she wore to the dance, took a

shower, and put on comfortable pajamas. She thought to herself “If I’m going to die, I may as

well be comfortable.” As she went down to the kitchen, all she could think about was the cruel

things, her now ex-boyfriend, said about her. He had always been degrading to her but this time

he went too far. She could still hear him screaming at her an kept reliving the moment, in her

mind. She got her mother’s heart pills and a glass of water to prepare for her death. She kept

praying to God to help her find some other way to deal with her problem.