The textbook did not spend a large portion on the concept of therapist cognitions, but I think this concept is useful for my future practice. It reminds me of my past practical experience of leading a group. When I was leading a group, I was extremely uncomfortable with silence. If the silence occurred, I kept thinking if I did something inappropriate and caused the silence. Then, I became more and more nervous and my voice even started shaking.
Thus, this event could be a good tip for me in order to become a good parent in the future. However, when our teacher announced the cancellation of date to me, I felt very confused and frustrated. Due to these emotions, I didn’t know what to decision to make but our teacher tranquilized me by telling me that we were going to have a personal discussion about this topic. After the class was ended, my teacher and I headed to her office. I explained to her the way I was feeling about this situation and I couldn’t be able to make it another date due to my burdened schedule.
It seems like lately, I have been expressing my emotions on my face. I do not mean to do this and not sure when I started doing, but I am glad I have become aware of it now, but I could potentially hurt a client. Another weakness I need to work on is figure out what the client is saying when they aren’t always saying it. This is another skill I imagine will become easier with more experience. Up until I had my first counseling session today, I would have said I usually do a good job of asking open-ended questions but during my first sessions, that was not something I did that well.
I would tell myself that I will finish my work after I go out with my friends. I would come back home feeling really tired and tell myself that I will finish it next morning. Underestimating the amount of time that was required to complete an assignment was a thing I regretted after I looked at my clock and saw that it’s 2 AM. For some courses, I did not take notes in class as I believed that reading the information in the textbook was enough. I recently realized that if I would’ve taken notes in class, I would’ve been more engaged and interested in the material I’m learning, as I would process it in my mind as I’m writing.
My Personal Meditation I was very skeptical and cautious about the lesson on meditation. A few years back I had taken a course on relaxation, which I had found to be only somewhat helpful. I was hoping to find another alternative to calm myself and release the stress. Although I became disbelieving of meditation-I was proved wrong. After you told us to close our eyes, I had a hard time falling into the meditation.
Upon beginning my counseling sessions at the student counseling center, I was unsure of what I would experience as a client, unsure of how I would react or what I would disclose during the sessions, and I was nervous about participating in counseling sessions. Before my first session, I found myself reflecting on why I felt so uneasy and nervous about participating in an individual session. Specifically, I remember thinking about how this activity would give me the opportunity to be a client, and the experience of participating in a counseling session. I also remember reiterating to myself that I am pursuing a career in the field of counseling, so this experience would be one I embrace, instead of view negatively. Throughout the six sessions, I found myself journaling my reflection of how my sessions went, as well as my impression and feedback of my counselor.
Even though I can be negative at times, I do have some situations where I think about my future. For example when I decided to leave to independent studies because I was always late, I was having problems at school and at home and it was very hard for me to focus on school. I thought if I left from regular school it could help me become more responsible and it could help me figure out what I wanted to major in. It was in independent studies that I found out that I really wanted to pursue a career in health. Another example where I thought about the future was when I took the CNA class; that is, I took the Certified Nursing Assistant course.
All in all though, it was just more practice for the students and I think they are really starting to get a tighter grasp on sequencing. I was a little frustrated because I wanted to try some different attention getters during my lesson, but I have only seen my cooperating teacher use one of them so I had to keep repeating the same attention getter, which I found to be less effective. One of my partners taught this week also they did a good job. I felt that she needed to have
I didn’t realize how helpful it would be take a few minutes from each day to have some time to myself, practicing self care. Recently after I have had a stressful day I will go home and find a mediational video and go to my room and take a few minutes to myself to calm down and clear my mind. By doing this small act, it has made enormous impact on how I handle certain situations. Rather than getting mad over something small because I’ve had a long day, I am able to sit back and think before I respond. I have seen a significant change in my relationship with others because I used to become very irritable after a stressful day and I would take it out on others.
It’s not a full course meal because breakfast is the important meal of the day. The reason I eat like this,is that I have no time to prepare a big meal for myself and also another reason is that I wake up a bit late. I am gladly that I am actually eating something than nothing. My mood throughout my day when I eat breakfast will be very happy and calm and my energy level will be middle. I am able to be attentive and progress well throughout my day.