Depression is quiet. I had learned that at the beginning of high school when all of the sudden, my self-depreciating thoughts had gone silent. The feeling of elation I had experienced that moment was mighty. I felt that it was too good to be true, that there was no way that I had freed myself of the depression I experienced since my childhood. And I was right. I learned that silence was deafening, it was louder than any of the hateful words I told myself. Growing up with depression makes it harder to grow out of. My entire childhood was built around my unhappiness, it molded who I was and was a part of my identity. It’s the reason why I had no real friends, why I was always so quiet. I was shortsighted because I never thought I’d make it far, especially not to college. I remember in elementary school a time when I refused to stand up when the lunch bell rang. When my teacher asked why moving, I rested my head on the wooden desk and said, “I don’t want to eat lunch. I don’t deserve to live.” That is a terrible thing for a child to say; somehow a small kid had figured out the value of life and believed that her own was too little to even eat lunch. Depression was not a choice. No one would choose to lose everything they loved in life. I lost enjoyment in going outside, in talking with friends, and even in eating …show more content…
I fought a war with myself and I am so proud to say that I am still standing here today due to my perseverance. I recognize that depression was a significant part in my life that shaped who I am now. I know that because of it, I am more careful in the words choose, I pick up on emotions easily, I know how to console people, and the list goes on. Despite depression being a major part of my identity for 15 years, I am proud to say that I am journeying through my life finding who I am without it. I plan to do all the things I said I couldn’t: Graduate high school, get my college diploma, find a job, and find my
Depression is considered a mental disorder that can lead an individual to commit suicide, experiment fatal risk that can injure his or her life. Furthermore, an individual feeling depressed lacks motivation to do anything progressive with his or her life. With that said, these individuals sometime gives up interest in activities that were once enjoyable, gets in a phase were he or she loses appetite, begins to overeat, loses concentration on what he or she is trying to complete, and becomes indecisiveness. Moreover, depression is a condition that makes an individual feel miserable, have no motivation to any activity that can influence his or her views, actions, welfare. Furthermore, depressed individuals at times may feel sad, apprehensive, desperate, destitute, useless, awkward, short-tempered, and agitated. In addition, the melancholy of depression is categorized by a greater concentration and length that is attached to severe symptoms. According to Wedding & Corsini (2014) states, “Physical disease, severe and acute stress, and chronic stress area also precipitating factors” (Pp. 240) of an individu...
Most of the population today, mainly the younger generations, do not know exactly how good they have it or how much worse the quality of life can be. Personally, I’ve been fortunate enough in my life to not have experienced too many hardships. It was a real eye-opener for me after my interview with Mary Fowler, Great Depression survivor. She has been a close friend to my grandmother for as long as I can remember, but I have never heard her real story.
The fall of my seventeenth year I came to terms with the fact that I was depressed, horribly, nightmarishly, insufferably depressed. This was not a new revelation be any means, simply a somewhat new acceptance. I accepted the fact that I had very few friends that I felt close to, rarely went out and if I did I was alone, spent hours upon hours surfing through the “sad”, “messed up”, and “depressed” tags on Tumblr, slept in irregular intervals that ranged from eighteen hours a day to not at all, and ate very little, and what I did eat I usually wouldn’t allow to stay down. I’ll leave that to the imagination.
Something that I have learned after overcoming this battle is that life is very unpredictable and it is up to the individual to rise above and choose the right path. This excerpt from the poem “Recovery” by Maya Angelou has given me encouragement and inspiration to move on with my life and become the best person that I can be: “A last love, proper in conclusion, should snip the wings forbidding further flight. But I now reft of that confusion, am lifted up and speeding towards the light.” I live by these words everyday because they motivate me to succeed and overcome the impossible.
Melinda Sordino was just a young teenage girl trying to have some fun. Now, she is loathed by afar for something nobody understands. During a summer party, Melinda drunkenly fumbled for the phone and dialed the cops. As she enters her freshman year of high school, her friends refuse to talk to her, and she escapes into the dark forests of her mind. “I am Outcast” (Anderson 4). But something about that party was not right. Something she tried not to relive but to forget. “I have worked so hard to forget every second of that stupid party, and here I am in the middle of a hostile crowd that hates me for what I had to do. I can’t tell them what really happened. I can’t even look at that part of myself” (Anderson 28). Depression is a serious mental disorder. The duration and symptoms vary from person to person, and some even have a genetic inclination to develop this illness (Bruce). Depression is not simply a chemical imbalance but a disease caused by several factors.
I have been diagnosed and living with depression for two months as of writing this essay. Depression is defined as a mental health disorder with characteristics of the disinterest of daily activities, depressed moods, and changes in physical characteristics. Life feels stagnant when living with depression, and happiness is a struggle to find. Most people want to find happiness in life, but what they really mean is that they want to find fulfillment in life. Happiness is just a byproduct from the feeling of fulfillment and pursuing happiness will lead you nowhere, it is fulfillment that should be aimed for.
dear depression, we go way back. i remember the first time i met you- i was 8 years old. i was teased for being fat, even though i was only 50 pounds. i remember you crawling into the back of my mind every time i looked in the mirror, forcing those rude comments back into my head. you didn't stick around at first, but you eventually manifested yourself into my life. you hit home with me when i was 12. the remarks about my weight had gotten cruel, but for some reason my appearance wasn't enough to make fun of. because at 12 i was a "slut", and i was "fake". i was told both to my face and behind a screen that no one liked me, that i could kill myself and no one could care. i could no longer go to school without the fear of being verbally attacked-
Depression is an extremely delicate topic. In the novels “13 Reasons Why” by Jay Asher and “The Perks of Being A Wallflower” by Stephan Chbosky do an outstanding job hitting the topic depression. Both novels cover depression in its own style. In one, someone commits suicide while on the contrary, the other person surpasses depression. Support systems are vital during depression, lack of communication as well as self-expression all lead to an easy way out. Anyone who is suffering from depression should have at least one confident to be able to communicate to. Depression is a heavy weighed disease in which one needs all the support one can get. A voice is needed as well, in which many people are scared of having. In each of the novels each fictional
“What’s wrong?” That was the most common question that was programmed in me to answer with just a simple, “Nothing.” But it wasn’t nothing. No. There were many things that were wrong, but I was too afraid of letting my problems be known. I had many qualms that kept me from acting my usual self. At first, I didn’t see it. I thought that the people close to me were just over exaggerating their concern for me. But as time passed, it became more apparent. I had severe depression.
But before I do that, I also need to inform you about depression because people often underestimate the seriousness of it and how badly it truly affects someone. When someone is suffering from depression, their head is filled with negative and often times, false thoughts. If it is a severe case of depression, the person often feels worthless and like they are not cared for by anyone. You can tell them you care about them and love them and will always be there for them but the amount of negative things that someone with depression puts into their head automatically trumps what you say. If you know someone with depression, you’ll notice that they lose interest in almost everything, and no longer want to do anything anymore. Depression isnt meant to be taken lightly, it isn’t a weakness, and it also isn’t something that you can just snap out of. Depression requires full attention and in most cases requires long term treatment. But its not something to beat yourself up about. Most people with depression feel better with medication, psychological counseling, or
Flash back to 1996 to when I was born, or less importantly when the Olympics were held in Atlanta, the minimum wage was raised to five dollars and 15 cents an hour, or the Spice Girls finally got a number one hit song. Unfortunately this is not a story about the Spice Girls’ climb to stardom, but is simply a story about my life and how I rose to the top. Well, how I rose to the top of my failures.
The silent killer that takes lives without warning, punishment, or any sympathy; depression is truly one of the most prominent mental illnesses in the world. Depression is defined as a mental illness inducing a severe and staunch feeling of sadness. The term depressed is coined in English as a temporary sadness that everyone experiences in their life. Despite that depression is more active in women, it is still one of the most common mental illnesses in the world. It affects anybody, regardless of sex, race, ethnicity, or socioeconomic standing. Regardless of all these facts, surprisingly little is known about depression, however, scientists have been able to hypothesize major causes, effects, and treatments for the disability affecting over
I never really thought about where my life was going. I always believed life took me where I wanted to go, I never thought that I was the one who took myself were I wanted to go. Once I entered high school I changed the way I thought. This is why I chose to go to college. I believe that college will give me the keys to unlock the doors of life. This way I can choose for myself where I go instead of someone choosing for me.
When people think about depression, immediately they connect it to a bunch of priviledged, superficial, shallow teens who drown themselves in their own sadness, and people label this a first world problem- and although this statement is, in some ways, true, the truth is, these teens are not at all superficial or shallow in any way. Recently, I was reading an article on depression, and the writer said something that really struck me as important. He said, depression is not being miserable when something bad happens in your life- that's natural sadness--it's a h...
Research has proven that depression is experienced by people of different cities and nationalities in this world. This specific despondency is a seemingly lifetime struggle that adolescents experience in their youthful years. In my essay I will be explaining how teens may become exposed to the illness and how we can improve their state of depression.