It was new years day, and the sun had just arisen when I felt this feeling inside me saying, what am I doing here, but even more importantly, how would I get out. The realization was scary, but I know that without it, my life would not have been at where it is now. I feel that with this experience, my mentality grew and now I see the world in a different way. It all started in high school, where I felt that all the attention I got during that time was for the façade that was reverted to the people, and not the real me because no one knew the real me. I had to lie about everything I had done and who I am just because one lie lead to another. The area I grew up in has really impacted my life in both positive and negative ways. For one, it helped …show more content…
I may have failed once again, but I can surely tell you that I did not let that happen again the second semester. I went from down to up to down to up again, constantly proving to myself that I am capable at performing at a higher levels if I only believed in myself. I did not let anybody tell me what was right and what was wrong and took charge of it all. Eleventh grade shows the real me, the me that actually tries in life and wants to succeed. The me that proves to others that I do not just want to perform at the average level, but actually at higher levels where nothing was able to stop me from reaching success. All these years of suffering and rage had finally been over once I decided to finally accept the truth as how it is. I know that I performed much better than the smart kids at my school, and I had to find a way of maintaining it that way and advancing even further. I started taking college courses which is something that I am proud of and the new opportunities I brought me. I taught myself how to be organized, never leave anything task left undone, even how to talk and socialize with people in the real
This experience confirmed in my heart that I was placed on this earth to help others. I want to work in a field where I can counsel, be a role model, and provide clinical help to those who want to turn their lives around. I want to make a difference. I know why God allowed me to face all I did growing up, so I could have compassion, not only compassion, but understanding, relate-ability. Be the person you needed when you were
After making the difficult decision of moving out from a school I called home and attended since Kindergarten, my freshman year in a new environment made for a rocky start. I fell into the wrong crowd, tried getting out, but kept making bad decisions, which eventually led to a deep depression. My dreams I had as a child were fading before my eyes, and negative thoughts consumed my mind. I started to believe that I had no purpose and could never amount to anything, but the four days at Camp Barnabas in Missouri changed the course of my entire life. This experience was important to me and helped sculpt me into the person I am today.
th, 1992 that’s when I was born. A big child as my mother would say, maybe that’s because I was almost ten pounds and put her in a great deal of pain. My parents were born in Mexico; they entered this country at a young age. They worked hard and never complained. My mom got married to my dad at nineteen and had my sister at twenty. I was born two years later. I guess I was the correct child since my parents stopped with me.
I was not in good shape either from constantly being on the computer, so that was not good at all either. I managed to pass my classes, and continued on to my sophomore year in San Gabriel High School. This year, I was more active and focused more on school because I knew games would not help me at all in the future. I joined the All Male Dance team, performed and I played a lot less games and was more alive than ever. I stayed out of trouble, and was doing well but I started to hang with the wrong crowd at the same time as well. It did not affect me as much as I thought it would. I thought it was just being cool and stuff which was completely silly. My junior year came, and I kept my grades up and thought it would be a fun junior year. It was until I got involved with an incident that completely ruined me. Not completely, but took a large toll on my highschool life. I am unable to attend any comprehensive high schools because of my actions and I regret what I did. I can not change it now, but I can only be grateful that I learn from it. I definitely did and will know how to make better decisions in the future. It bothers me that I changed from playing games all day and not worrying about anything to being transferred to another
My mom picked me up at the end of the day and I could tell by her body language that something was wrong. I asked and she began to cry hysterically and through her sobs I heard that my brother was moving to Ohio. I began to sob too because the person I felt closest to was leaving us and we had to hear it from someone else. When my brother got home he said something that tore a hole in my chest. When my mother asked, “Are you picking her over us, your family?” he responded “Yes.” I remember feeling as if I was going to faint. I remember thinking how could my brother choose her over us. This was a negative time in my life because my brother is the person I went to for everything and the thought of him leaving us broke my heart. During this negative time I had to build resilience. I did this by embracing change, being optimistic and creating a strong social network. To embrace change I sat down and thought about how my brother was feeling. I thought of how he must feel, he is leaving his whole life behind for a girl who it might not even work out with. I thought about how it impossible to things to always
It was extraordinary, indescribable, breathtaking. I looked out of the window next to me, and before my eyes was the view of a clear, blue sky, covered in sheets of snowy, white clouds. Slowly we began descending through them, revealing the expanse of blue water, stretching in every direction of the horizon. In the far right I could see a glimpse of main land, but not just any land, India. It was there and then, that I knew my life would be changed forever.
On December 19, 2012, on the way back home from soccer practice, my parents broke the news to my brother and I that we were going to be moving to Orange County after spending a wonderful year in Chicago. Prior to our move to Chicago we lived in Sydney, Australia for three years. I had looked forward to the move back to the US from Australia for two reasons. One, I was beginning “middle school”, 5th grade, but was considered middle school there, and two, I found out that our family was moving back to the Windy City, well…a little north from there to a small village called Glencoe. Upon moving there, getting settled in, and starting school, I fell in love with the place and everybody who was associated with it as it was a small village with less than 2,000 people. I also did not expect to move anywhere and thought that this would be the place where I would grow up and call home. Naturally, after experiencing all this, when I found out the news about our relocation to
Over the past year, everything in my life has completely changed. The ways that I think, react, and live now are totally different. As I was growing up my father would physically abuse me. The situation that I was in cost me many things in my life, but in retrospect I have gained more than I have lost. Six months ago I had hit rock bottom. It was the end of my junior year and I had just run away from my house for the fourteenth or fifteenth time. I was at a payphone, going to call one of my friends to come pick me up and as I was catching my breath. I couldn't think of anyone to pick me up. My life had been totally cut off because of all the wrong decisions that I was making. It was like I had flashbacks of scenes through the last four years of my life and I saw how I was reacting to situations, and I saw how everything I did was only fixing things in the short term. I came to accept what had happened to me in my past and I decided to move forward towards a better future. I made a call. I took an offer to live with an old friend's family and made a promise to myself to look for a long-term answer. Since I have been living with my new family, I still talk to my mother and sister and I see that even though the same patterns are still occurring, I can look back now and see that I have moved on to another level of awareness. I am now no longer content to play the same old roles of the one that bears the blame that my family expected me to play. For four years I was entirely focused on my problems while the world went on around me. Now I want to see what I have been missing. I can see how my situation has set me apart from others but people intrigue me and I want to listen to their stories and ideas and learn what makes them tick.
In life people have drama and struggles, and some have had challenges that have changed the people in their family as well as their relationships. Lots of people have to change and grow up to help themselves and others. My life changed because I had to grow up and had to help take on the role of being the mother in the household. At the end it taught me a good lesson and showed me my true self.
It had come to the attention of my family that I had some sort of psychological problem and something had to be done. I was always labeled as a shy and quiet kid, and like my family I had thought nothing more of my behavior. However, now it had become something more obvious. I had told my parents the kinds of problems I was having. Basically I didn't want to talk to anyone or to be anywhere near anyone I didn't know. I didn't really want to leave my house for any reason for fear that I might have to talk to someone. I was so critical and scrutinizing in relation to myself that I couldn't even enter into a conversation. Everyone seems to have a part of themselves that lends itself to thoughts of pessimism and failure, but mine was something that was in the forefront of my mind at all times. Something telling me that everything I did was a failure, and that anything I ever did would not succeed. Through discussion with my family it was decided that I should move out of my parents house to a place where I could find treatment and get a job. I was to reside with my sister Lisa, her partner Brynn, and their Saint Bernard in Greensboro.
Although I am only sixteen years old and in the eleventh grade of high school, many things have influenced me and caused me to be the person that I am today. I hope that these things will continue to help me be a better person and influence me as my life continues. Some of the things that have influenced me have been church, my family, my friends, and school.
The choice I have made that affected my life was when I decided to care about school and my grades. I used to not care about my grades or school and do what I want at school. I didn’t care about the class or the teachers. My life was a mess and unorganized. When I got my report card my parents used to be real upset and angry with me. I used to get F’s and D’s and wouldn’t care. When I got to High school I had to make a choice to change and have a better future and to try hard or to not care and to do what I want and make things easy . I made a choice to change and try hard and work hard. When I did change everything about me changed. The choice I made affected my life completely. I do all my work that the teacher gave us even when It was hard
5 years ago I sat in Muir Middle School with my friends and classmates talking about television shows we watched the night before and plans for that weekend. I didn 't have a job, and my only responsibility was taking care of myself and doing my school work. I never thought that my life could be dramatically changed in a short period of 5 years. 5 years full of events and lessons. I am now 18 years old and my personality, hobbies and appearance are all very different now.
I have a very fulfilling feeling about what I have been able to accomplish in my life so far. I want the absolute best for myself and those close to me. I often go above and beyond to help those around me succeed and be the best version of themselves that they can possibly be.
People dont change; we just learn more about who they want to be. I was 11; It was the ending of fall, beginning of winter. My brother was five was at the time and we lived here in small town Cresco. We lived a normal family life. My mom worked at Donaldsons at night and my dad was working at McNeilious. I took care of my brother alot, had to watch, play, and be with him alot. We grew close when we were young. My dad would get home at 5:30 every night and we would have supper. Things were good. Although at night I would hear my parents fight about money, that all my mom cared about. She didnt care for anything else. It came to November 2nd, 2011 my moms birthday. I was making pancakes for her and she was in the shower and getting ready for