Personal Narrative-Assisted Suicide

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I believe every suicidal person does not want to die. When you hear a person say they want to die or that they have been hospitalized for a suicide attempt, you wonder why and how a person would want to kill themselves. Maybe you are even fearful of them.
I was staying after school one day in my history class, helping the teacher put books away, and straightening the desks. I blurted out,”I tried to kill myself”. He stopped and looked at me with a most puzzled look. My throat tightened and my hands gripped the desk, holding on for dear life, as I swallowed hard. He began to ask the usual questions:” Why? How? When? What made you feel that way?” I had no answers for him because I did not try to kill myself. I have been diagnosed with Major …show more content…

It was the worst it had ever been in an extremely long time. She told me she did not care if I leave, I should run away and in 24 hours she will just file a missing person's report. She told me that I am nothing and I will never be anything along with some other non-school-appropriate words. She then left to pick my brother up. I was shocked hurt and livid. I planned to kill myself. I was frustrated with the situation, but before I could do it I must take a shower. So I took a shower then looked at myself for what felt like an eternity in the mirror. I walked over and sat on the bed took a razor I got out of a sharpener and began to cut with a purpose on the vein right under my wrist. The cuts were deep but not deep enough and I felt the vein move under my skin desperately trying to escape my vicious assault. When I do puncture it it puffs up which is common. I try and I try and I damn myself because the razor is not big enough. I began to lash out at myself for not buying new razors but why would I? I was done cutting and playing this suicide game. Finally, I am just so tired, I lay down and sleep. The next day I woke up and went to school speaking to no one about the incident, because I knew it would be a pointless endeavor. I would be thrown away checked off of a list like others before

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