“Jillian, I think it’s time. We have given him the best possible life, but we can’t make him suffer anymore.” My moms words cut me like a knife. I instantly fell to the ground, sobbing. I cannot lose my best friend. I just cannot. I do not know what I would do without him. He has been here for me for 10 years, my listening ear, my snuggle buddy, my shotgun rider. What was I going to do without him? Rewind back to May 2016. Toby, my chocolate lab, has begun having seizures. These seizures are the scariest thing I have ever seen in my life. The seizures begin with an indescribable sound. A sound that instantly makes your heart stop and makes you want to look, but you know you really cannot look because it is going to absolutely crush you. After …show more content…
Peanut butter sandwiches were a special treat he received for his birthday. Considering he was not going to have another birthday, I gave him his sandwich a little bit early. I wore a bracelet that matched his collar, so on the inside of his collar I wrote him a little note. We snuggled all that night and most of the following day until my mom got home and it was time. She took him on one last long walk around the neighborhood before loading him in the car. Seconds felt like minutes, and the minutes felt like hours as we drove in complete silence to the vet. Toby considered the car ride a normal ride and sat in the back with his head out the window, one of his favorite things to do. The inside of my lip was raw from biting at it, but I was trying everything I could to not cry. We arrived at the vet and were greeted by the friendly staff we had gotten to know very well over the past year. I gave my Bubba one last hug and buried my face in his fur. I am going to miss you so much, Bubba. I hope they have all the peanut butter sandwiches, tennis balls, and cuddles in dog heaven. Even though this decision was so hard, I knew it was best for him and he would not be suffering anymore. My mom and I held his paws all the way until the end. His leg went limp and slipped off the table. My best friend is gone. What am I supposed to do now? How am I supposed to go home without him? The house will never be the same. I do not think I have ever cried so hard, but my heart was ripped from my chest. I did not feel anything but
My heart ached with pain. I felt the rain pour on me, as my own tears started to drop just like the rain surrounding me. Regret. It was around me like a cloud that will always be on top of me no matter what.
It was like sensitivity of pain, hurt, and sadness. It was a feeling that didn't cause physical pain, but emotional pain. It didn't cause him pain in his arms, legs, knees, or head. No. This pain was a different kind of pain. It was a pain that was unlike anything he had ever experienced before. This pain attacked him on the inside. It went to the heart. His heart felt like it was splitting. It felt like his whole world was ending. It was as if he was
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I miss him dearly and in missing him, am afraid to make a few steps myself.
Her brother isn’t there for her and she feels so alone, she begins to cut herself. She doesn’t know how to deal with the fact of no longer having her parents in her
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Mom told me not to let you go and I did anyway. I always wonder how different your life would have been. I hope you can forgive me for that!” However, this is what he had to say about having any regrets from this experience. But, again, he was at no fault. Both of my parents emotions were running high at the time, who’s would not be? Any parent would be freaking out to an extreme level if their baby boy were in the hospital with his life under question. “My thoughts went from panic, is he hurt? How bad is it?” this was my father’s thinking while he sat in the waiting room. This describes his emotional state more than anything – worried, guilty, and frantic out of his mind. This was entirely acceptable, however – I feel like there would not be any other way to
Suddenly I started weeping. I did not know why I wept for a while. I
..., but no trace of tears. I suppose, then, your heart has been weeping blood?’” (344).
"I regret not telling my best friend how much he meant to me, and before I knew it, it was too late because he killed himself.
My heart was simply ripped apart. I could not believe it at first, but I knew I had to. After all these wonderful years and enthralling moments, I finally have to face God's greatest challenge. My mind wasn't as messy as before anymore and I couldn't even think of what to think. It seemed as if I had nothing to worry about, nothing to do, nothing to say. I was trapped inside this room waiting for the Grim Reaper to reap my innocent soul.