Paranoia In Senselessness By Horacio Castellanos Moya

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Once having read the book “Senselessness” by Horacio Castellanos Moya, understanding the way the protagonist feels is simple, the protagonist feels paranoid. Each and every little detail and or scenario leads the main protagonist to becoming this paranoid man that he soon fully develops into. For the protagonist, the task of editing and proofreading the one thousand one hundred pages of the indigenous testimonies was too much. Essentially what we see as the readers is a man slowly but surely become more and more paranoid, he begins to become tremendously involved in his work as oppose to his initial perspective on the whole job, and later begins to lose it. Within good reasoning too, as we later find out that his paranoia becomes justified …show more content…

Knowing so only adds to the paranoia in the back of his mind. Here is a sentence in which the protagonist explains his awareness to the whole dramatic situation he has now become a part of. “I was about to stick my snout into somebody else’s wasps’ nest, make sure that the Catholic hands about to touch the balls of the military tiger were clean and had even gotten a manicure,” What he means is that he is sticking his snout into the wasp nest by agreeing to do this job for his buddy Erick, He refers to the one thousand one hundred pages he has to edit as a wasp nest due to the sensitive content that they hold within them. Him saying that the Catholic hands needed to be clean and gotten a manicure is what he is referring to his job being, just a manicure, a simple edit of the testimonies to make sure they are nice and clean. As for the tigers balls, well you do not want to touch a tigers balls because they are dangerous animals and are more than likely going to try to kill you after having touched said balls, which is exactly what he thinks the Guatemalan military is going to do to him if he “touches their …show more content…

We hear of the effect from the protagonist himself when he says “the cost to cure me of the psychological and emotional trauma I was subjected to while reading over and over again the aforementioned report” So he is aware that he has suffered trauma from the report. Furthermore we begin to see evidence of this trauma when it seems he has stopped living in the present moment, but rather in the testimonies he has read. Here is a quote to prove so, “I felt my Cousin Quique’s hand on my shoulder, I saw his reflection approaching me in the mirror and asking me in my ear what was happening to me, if I was talking to him, to which I responded, turning around to look him in the eyes, They were people just like us we were afraid of, which of course unnerved him” As we can see from this example, he is caught up in all of the knowledge he was acquired from the testimonies and, at the moment nothing else matters to him. An even stranger event occurs when he is staring at himself in the mirror from the bar he is in and no longer recognizes who he is. “For my attention was focused on my own face reflected in the mirror,concentrating as I was on each and every one of my features, on the expression on my face, which suddenly looked different to me, as if he who was there wasn’t me, as if that face for an instant were

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