Of Mice And Men Monologue

The sound of ice swerving in the crystal clear glass echoed through my ear. I was at the Old Susy’s place regretting the decision I took for Lennie. I drank until noon and went back to the ranch. As I entered, I noticed everyone was looking at me with deep concern in their eyes. I wasn't in the mood to talk so I went straight to my bed. I heard Candy’s footsteps inch closer to me. “George aren’t ya gonna eat something?”
I didn’t answer. I could hear his deep concern in his voice. I felt bad however, I didn't want to deal with all of them right now. I turned over to face the wall so that they hopefully got the message. “George stop bein’ such a baby and grow up already!”
Curley’s way of cheering someone up is questionable at times. I
He just turned and left without a word. I touched Lennie’s grave. The rough touch of the wood deflecting to my fingers. I walked back to the ranch. Everyone was asleep. I wanted to run away tomorrow but I couldn’t let this chance pass up. It also prevented any chance of Candy following me. I tiptoed out of the room and went straight to the woods. I made sure to mix myself in with the shadows of the trees. I saw the river and It felt like I did it...until I felt something grab me by my neck. I quickly got flipped over and pushed to the ground. “Where ya’ think ya’ going?” Fear lit up my eyes. I shifted my eyes slowly just enough to see who was holding me down. It was Curley. “I was …,” I couldn’t lie, “leaving.” Curley picked me up and slammed me against the tree. “Don't think I’m gonna hold back just because your friend died!” Curley said I could tell he was furious like if he wanted he would kill me in a second. He dragged me back to the ranch and threw everything that was in my bag to the ground. Everyone came out to see what was going on. Even Candy. “George tried to run away from this ranch!” Curley pushed me to the ground. I quickly saw a glimpse of everyone. Candy looked afraid, Slim looked at me with disappointment. The boss slowly takes a step in front of me and lifted up my chin. I quickly looked down in shame. “Was anyone else involved in this!” I looked over at Candy.
I slowly walked not looking back. I didn’t care where I ended up and I gave up on owning a ranch. There’s no point. The cold chill was blazing on me and my shoe gently began to pull out a tear. I thought about Candy and the other guys. Hopefully I made the right choice. The sun came down and I ended up in a deserted river. Slowly, I began to regain where I was and I opened my eyes in disbelief. I reached the spot where Lennie almost drowned if I didn’t save him from this river. It’s still the same as we left it, same rock, same sound as the water moves, and same smell. I sat in the nearest rock and gazed on the water. I slowly pushed forward memories beginning to fill my head. The memory where I confessed to Slim "I used to have a hell of a lot of fun with 'im. Used to play jokes on 'im 'cause he was too dumb to take care of 'imself. But he was too dumb even to know he had a joke played on him. I had fun. Made me seem God damn smart alongside of him. Why he'd do any damn thing I tol' him. If I tol' him to walk over a cliff, over he'd go. That wasn't so damn much fun after a while. He never got mad about it, neither. I've beat the hell outa him, and he coulda bust every bone in my body jus' with his han's, but he never lifted a finger against