My Calling Essay

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Many years ago I had a job keypunching orders for a commodity brokerage firm. It was my first real job paying good money. It was a way of getting started. It definitely did not feed my soul. It did however; increase the speed at which I key numbers. From there I moved into a career as a compliance associate. My career as a Compliance Associate gives me mobility and allows me to be promoted and receive raises. It is what I excel and study for over the years. My calling however is something better. It is what I feed off of. Styling is what I constantly think about day in day out.
I believe we are all here for a reason and that we all have significance in the world. I feel that we are all blessed with unique gifts. These expressions of our gifts …show more content…

Calling”it states, “Jobs come and go, but a calling is something you were given the moment you were born. She also states, “you can lose a job, but you can’t lose your calling” (2013). A calling is something you are drawn to. A calling is that strong inner impulse one has that lead you to that course of action, having that feeling of certitude, influence from deep down. When I was younger, my parents use to say“do what you like and live what you love.” Somehow over the years I did not stick to that rule, only glazing the surface of that saying.
Although, I have the platform and drive to commit to styling I find myself resistant to move toward my calling full time because of fear of not living up to what I know is possible.This has definitely affected the results of pursuing my calling. Styling is not the hard part.That is what I enjoy. It is the negative thoughts, blocking myself from moving forward by making excuses which has held me back. For example, making myself believe I have to wait for the perfect time when in reality there is never a perfect time. I just need to do it. Assuming I know how things will turn out. When not knowing is the great part of it. Constantly, listen to that negative voice inside, instead of thinking positive. I’m constantly worrying about money, when in fact money comes and goes, just be smart and plan. Listening to negative people I call dream-killer, instead of being careful of who I tell my dreams …show more content…

Have I become comfortable with the steady income of working a 9-5 full time? Am I content with my regular clients? Am I scared to bust that bubble of perfection I created. Styling and running my business part-time committing only a fraction of my time. That is what I ask myself constantly and even more so now since taking the Public Speaking class at DePaul. Realizing I am holding me back. I am not totally willing to take risks. Fear of losing what I built. I have become comfortable with my lifestyle. These are things that have blocked my progression toward my calling. For example, I would say I am fine in the space I am at right now when actually I am afraid. Thinking it is selfish and unreasonable for wanting this. That it is not possible or smart to devote everything to styling/fashion. Which in reality with all that being said, my calling consume my thoughts daily, even when I doubt myself, my calling to style eases me and give me the drive to continue on.
So I decided de-program myself and take the steps needed to make the big change in myself. That moving towards my calling full time to style is not a selfish act or a bid for attention. It is a gift I can offer others. Do not cheat myself of happiness. Give what I got. Do what I love. Style so that people will look amazing and feel great in the process. Stop telling myself I cannot pursue my calling full-time and that it is too hard because styling always redirect back

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