I was giving up on what was important to me about this job and just making it through each day. Lesson plans were completed and all the children were shown love each day and all their safety needs were met, however, we weren’t able to teach them all that we had planned, just a mere fraction. This has made me feel unsuccessful as if I had somehow failed as a teacher. Our classroom this year was honestly stacked unfairly in comparison with all of the other classes; this made for a possible reason to feel unsuccessful. We may have tried every avenue we thought possible to get through to these kids but by the end of the year the behaviors increased yet academically some did show improvement.
I and my parents had a big fight about the grades that I had and the school even had us sat in the parent center to reconcile our problem with a psychologist. After the talk between my parent, the psychologist, and me, my parents seems changed, they don’t restrain me anymore like before. Even though I still thought that education is not important, but I started working hard to make up all the classes that I failed to get my high school diploma because I realized the hope that they put on me and I don’t want them to be disappointed again. During my senior year of high school, I did not only take six classes, but also working on a program called Cyber High to retake all my failed classes with high grades, and also take extra class to average up my GPA in order to meet graduate requirements.
It was too difficult to please everybody but at that time I thought if I didn’t do something, I couldn’t be loved by others. So I was obsessed with perfection and it made me really exhausted. When I was in the lower grades in elementary school, most of the people around me knew that my mom was a teacher. So my parents had always told me that I should behave well in school. I tried and tried to do it then I was often applauded for that action.
Students are children who feel trapped into going to school. This feeling eventually turns into acceptance. They have acceptance that they must go to school to better themselves. Many students fall into the trap of being forced to "make good grades", and end up learning in the process. These students come to college to realize it takes time, some disappointment, and harder work than they were used to in Public Schools.
I would have to search for answers in my memory for some time. Sometimes answers just weren’t retrieved at all. I became frustrated in school often, and eventually developed a negative attitude toward school. I struggled a lot with this because I knew I could do better. Every day I prepared myself for failure because I lacked the tools and strategies that I needed to succeed in school.
Ever since finally leaving elementary school, I was always afraid of the challenges ahead of me; at one point I even heard that grades actually mattered, not that I would not try in school. And so I went through the first year of middle school, and the next, in probably one of the most contemplative years of my life. Where I thought grades would be my largest fear, I began to think of being social; where I once thought the interactions I got in sports was adequate, I now looked at others and questioned my beliefs. ‘Others visit their friends most of the week, but I only see them at school… am I wrong?’ This simple question threw my thoughts into a frenzy the next few years. I began to think about it heavily, coming home, taking showers, sitting silently amongst my ‘friends’; was I really their friend?
It was always made very clear to me that I needed to make good grades in school, however I cannot remember one time that either of my parents helped me with homework. I often struggled with the fear of not being good enough during most of my Operation stage of cognitive development. At this time my attachment style towards my parents was avoidant. Wh... ... middle of paper ... ...r me to reason with. My family and life structure would be considered a nuclear one.
Procrastination is a bad thing that generally occurs in everyone when short-term benefits are the only outcome people see. Procrastination is hard for me, mainly because I have a bad habit of waiting to do an assignment closer
Perfectionism is a common cause of low self-esteem. It is critical of every effort and convinces you that nothing is ever good enough. It can also cause you to drive yourself to the point of chronic stress, exhaustion, and burnout. Every time perfectionism counsels counsels you that you "should", "have to", or "must", you tend to push yourself forward out of anxiety, rather than from natural desire and inclination. The more perfectionistic you are, the more often you're likely to feel anxious.
I am being a bit repetitive, but procrastinating can cause a lot of problems in life. Those who have a family that are strong in the subjects that they learn can help those who have trouble with their homework. Getting satisfactory grades in school is probably the number one priority in life for those who still take school. Many children should find solutions to get their work done to cause less problems for school. Procrastination has always affected many people’s lives and how they go through