Identity In Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar

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In this particular scene of The Bell Jar, by Sylvia Plath, Esther is taking the train back to Massachusetts with streaks of Marco’s blood across her face. Her mother meets her at the train station and tells her that she did not get accepted to the writing course that she applied to. She is not too fond of the idea of spending her summer in Massachusetts. Esther gets a letter in the mail from Buddy, which said that he was falling in love with a nurse, however, if Esther goes to see him during the summer she may be able to win him back. She then writes on the back of the letter that she is engaged and never wants to see Buddy again. Esther is trying to leave her past and forget about the things that brought her down. When she tells Buddy that …show more content…

Esther is having a hard time accepting the person that she is trying to become. She views herself as an outlier and has little confidence. The loss of identity that she has created has a negative impact on who she is as a person. In another example, while Esther is in the elevator, she looks at herself in the mirror and does not recognize her reflection, “A big, smudgy-eyed Chinese women staring idiotically into my face. It was only me, of course. I was appalled to see how wrinkled and used up I looked,” (Plath 18). In her reflection, she views herself as someone she no longer recognizes. She has lost her identity of who she once was and now identifies herself as a …show more content…

Esther contradicted herself because she wanted things to be pure, but at the same time do things that would make her no longer pure by cultural standards. Over the course of the book, Esther describes everything as being so pure and so white. “When I was nineteen, pureness was the great issue,” (Plath 82). Esther wanted to reach the “boundary line” meaning to cross the line that divided things from being pure and impure. She had such an obsession over pureness that after the age of 10, she wanted to try out the path of impure things. Esther continuously tried many things in search to find the version of herself that she can finally

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