I Am Obsessed With Writing

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There's a dark side of writing I didn't discover until it was too late. I used to be dutiful and sensitive, the epitome of "nice." However, writing has seductively siphoned off the time and energy I gave to take care of everyone else. Like mild-mannered Dr. Jekyll when he sipped that fateful elixir, I have changed into someone I barely recognize.

Let me say I never chose to become a writer. Yet over the years writing stalked me, peeking from behind trees, always at the edge of my vision. Finally I turned around and confronted it. Well? I asked, What do you want with me? Writing smiled as it crept closer. I felt it melt into my body, filling empty spaces like water in a sponge. Ahhh, it said. Let's get to work.

Shucking my inhibitions, I leapt from the highest diving board. After the thrill of a first draft, I drew a deeper sense of joy from the revisions. When all the right words were in their proper places, I felt my s...

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...ash to my computer, she will not see me again that day.

Writing won't let me go. It has jelled into my core; it would be easier for me to remove my lungs. Writing has irrevocably altered my life and my spirit.

Have I become brash? Let's say forthright. Am I more selfish? Substitute "devoted to fulfilling my potential." Obsessed? I call it committed. I apply these positive spins to face the most shocking revelation: I've changed, but I've changed into who I really am.

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