I would begin to doubt my aca... ... middle of paper ... ...dn’t accomplish much of anything in high school I finally woke up by realizing I couldn’t mess up on my last chance at redemption. I came having no friends for to depend on, a very pessimistic mindset, and horrible persistence on pushing myself to things I wasn’t ready for; now I am confident enough on my own abilities and what they can be applied towards. After my first semester I made nearly all A’s, was recommended into “The Honors College” at Lone Star, and was named to the President’s List. This might not mean much to other students, but for me it was like breaking the chains that were holding back a potential that has yet to have been entirely expanded upon. To make a long story short, I am the type of person who will find a way to get things done by going through any obstacle that stands in my way to reach my goal, and my goal right now is to become an Aggie.
My plan of two years came crashing down last week, my dream of going to a six year medical program was denied. The criteria that I have and the criteria that the school emplaced did not match up. I had to many college credit hours for the fast track program which denied my access into my dream program. After receiving the heartbreaking email, I really began to think about my life. At first I was angry at myself for taking too many college classes, but then I began to see that it may have been the best thing to ever happen to me.
And sure, the thought was extremely exciting to me as well, but how would I survive without my family and friends and the things that had taken me eighteen years to get used to. I felt like going to college was pretty much taking everything that I knew and had grown accustomed to and throwing it up in the air. The worst part about it all was that I felt like I was the only one that actually thought about this. I felt so immature and childish for actually being scared to come to college. After I thought I wouldn't be able to take the pressures anymore, I decided to approach my mom about the subject.
My high school career ended on that night, but it didn’t close the book that is my life, it only started a new chapter, and with it came a whole slue of uncertainties. I had to ask myself, “What’s next?” The only thing that I could think of was the rest of my life, and college would start the rest of my life. With college being this important I knew that every decision that I made would affect my life in some way, and this did anything but calm my nerves. I then had the next three months to prepare for this step in my life. Once again I was a little rattled by this notion.
However, after performing poorly for three years, my GPA cannot reflect the transformation I underwent at the start of this year. Dedicated to making something of myself, I finally matured and am now trying to lessen the consequences of my past actions. Armed with my new attitude and my understanding of the extreme importance of earning good grades to signal my capacity to work responsibly, I assure you that I will never revert to the student I once was. In retrospect, I believe that it was my inability to choose my classes that resulted in my lack of enthusiasm on the ride to school each morning. I enjoy the freedom to pursue my own interests and anxiously anticipate the ability to choose my own class schedule in college.
The fear of a bad group, the fear of a sponsor not cooperating, and the fear of failing expectations is pretty much all I heard last semester from people in the course. When I stepped up to be a team leader, those were all elements I wanted to avoid. I knew stepping up for the position meant I had a little more control in which direction I wanted myself and my group to experience for the course. But, as the team came together and we all... ... middle of paper ... ...g a team contract, and connecting with a sponsor and organization all seems like a semester ago at this point. Going in with all types of nervousness now seems ridiculous to me, as I feel like I am in a much better plan than I expected to be.
Educational Autobiography My education journey has been through some setbacks, but I have continued to push forward and conquered. I have felt that I have a fixed mind set and just am not capable of achieving some things. After learning the difference between growth and fixed mindset I have realized that everyone is capable of learning anything through hard work and dedication. My biggest accomplishment in school is when I graduated high school early despite what others said. I decided that public high school was not for me, because of all of the distractions I had.
Educational Autobiography My education journey has been through some setbacks, but I have continued to push forward and conquer. I have felt that I have a fixed mind set and just am not capable of achieving some things. After learning the difference between growth and fixed mindset I have realized that I have a growth mindset and that everyone is capable of learning anything through hard work and dedication. My biggest accomplishment in school is when I graduated high school early despite what others said. I decided that public high school was not for me, because of all of the distractions I had.
Convincing myself with the excuse that I only had time to work, and that it was too late for me to get educated. I must admit; it was fear to failure. I am in a learning process, and I understand that I have a long way to go, but I am ready for the challenge and what it might bring ahead. My first day at class was very stressful because I did not even know what a syllabus was. This was the very first college class that I attended, and now I am glad I did.
Even our assignment for a short presentation had me dreading my day to be up in front of everyone. I was pushed to step out of my comfort zone, because I knew there was no alternative except failing the course. Another essay was out Photo essay, which as a class we spent numerous occasions expanding our minds to construct an essay on someone we had never met. I am thankful I had these opportunities in such a small setting and a supportive environment. By the end of the semester I still found myself being challenged with new concepts, such as writing a monologue in first person from a person I have never met.