First Gay Lover

Kevin always knew that he was different, even as a young child he knew. Girls just never interested him for anything more than as playmates or casual friends. He liked girls all right, just not like the other guys did. He always knew that he was probably gay, but when you're young you don't really understand all the feelings and emotions that well up inside of you as you grow to adulthood. Showing affection??? Now that was something that Kevin couldn't even comprehend trying in his small middle class mid western town. Besides, who would he show that affection to? For all he knew he was the only gay kid in his whole school, and no one suspected that he was queer, and he wasn't about to come out where he felt that even his parents wouldn't understand. Feeling lonely was just something he was used to. He was certainly looking forward to his first year at State U., sure that at least there he would find others in the same boat as he.

The first weeks of college life were hectic to say the least, what with twenty five thousand students in one place was overwhelming as well as exhilarating! This was the first time Kevin had ever been on his own for any length of time, and he settled into a comfortable routine. He even began to make a few friends in his classes as well as in his dormitory. His roommate, Tom, was a nineteen year old freshman from Chicago, so many nights were spent telling each other of life in each other's home town. Kevin had to admit that Tom's stories were much more interesting than his own, and Tom seemed to have plenty of tales to tell about the girls he had been with and the wild sex they had together. Luckily for him, Tom didn't really try to pry into Kevin's personal background so Kevin didn't even have to lie about exploits with the opposite sex!

As the first quarter was coming to an end, a lot of time was spent cramming for tests. A shy young freshman named Greg who had a room down the hall from Kevin was in several of his classes so they ended up studying together in Greg's room. Kevin felt more at ease around Greg than he had ever felt about anyone in his whole life. He wasn't sure if Greg felt the same way, but they seemed so relaxed together that Kevin had hopes that just maybe Greg would turn out to be more than just a study partner.