Loving myself: Then and Now
Heath L. Buckmaster said “Often, it’s not about becoming a new person, but becoming the person you were meant to be, and already are, but don’t know how to be.” Everyone goes through a phase in finding and accepting themselves, for me it took a long time. Around the age of eleven, I had a rare and incurable skin disease called Hidradenitis Suppurativa (HS) for short. It’s a disease that usually begins as pimple-like bumps on the skin. There’s three stages to this disease, I have stage three which is the most appalling stage. My pimple-like bump grows deep into my chest that becomes painful and also leaks blood, which usually has an order. Once it starts to heal it turns into a scar, but that scar thickens which makes
I realized going through many struggles and obstacles, has helped me become the cheerful, extrovert person I am today. I do things now, that the old me would never do, I’m more open, outgoing and confident. I carry myself way better than I ever imagined. I can rule the world now, because I feel great, and when you feel great it’s one of the best feelings especially when you’re truly happy. I’ve learned that no one can put you down or make you feel imperfect but yourself, or unless you allow others to treat you poorly. As much as you can, or whenever you can tell yourself how important, and marvelous you are, because if you don’t believe it you’ll never believe it from someone else. As Lucille Ball says “Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this
Eighteen year old me is much happier compared to eleven year old me, something I never guess would have ever happened. I thought I was never going to be happy or able to live my life like regular people, but I was completely wrong because nothing is wrong with me I’m just as unique as anyone else is. Being comfortable with my skin has helped me deal with my skin disease better, because I realized when I was depressed it was harder to deal with the pain. I still have pain here and there but now that I’m happy it’s easier to deal with because I don’t concentrate on the pain, I push it out of my mind. A lot has changed in the past seven years, I’ve gone from being depressed, to hating myself, my body, to being the happiest person ever, and the most accepting person as well. I’m glad I went through this phase, because now I can share my story to others and hope that whatever their battle is, they can get through it and no longer how long they take; months, years, it’s okay because with time you can get through
Now, whenever I’m faced with a new, unfamiliar, or difficult task, I only hold myself to my own standards and expectations. Free from the weight of other’s expectations of me, I feel as though tasks that once felt burdensome now feel more tangible and achievable. Not that I suddenly feel as though I don’t need to give every new challenge everything I have, I just do so only seeking to meet my already high
It was after I had lost someone in my life that was my other half. I didn’t understand who I was, what my purpose was, what made me who I am. As far as I was concerned I was reduced to nothing more than an individual that was now alone. I didn’t realize that my identity was partly crafted from simply just being by their side all the time, that whenever I was introduced to someone, or was talking to mutuals about them, I was known for being their best friend. After the fiasco that became the end of our relationship, I felt as if I was just floating through the days and nights. This feeling went on for about 2 months until I slowly came out of it. I didn’t experience a grand epiphany of any sort that inspired me to change myself. I was painting and listening to music and the thought just slowly came to me. I love to paint, and I love listening to and creating and playing music. I began to gain back my sense of identity by engaging in activities I loved. I’m a painter, a musician, a writer, a passionate lover of movies. I’ve learned that identity can isn’t set in stone, there’s always room for
While going on a journey to be successful there are many up and downs that can create a stronger person or knock a person down. When a person keeps on fighting over and over without giving up he or she are described to be ambitious like Jane Golden who was mentioned in Purpose by Angela Duckworth. Continuing to go further and further a person will run into others who are in need of help, and the right thing to do is be caring like Louie Zamperini who is viewed as a hero in today’s world and in Unbroken by Laura Hillenbrand. Once reaching a stage in life that is comfortable a person will soon discovered happiness. Principal Ms.Short is starting find happiness at Solon High School. Because success is an accomplishment that is very complex through a long period, it is a mixture of
...at little voice in my head, got to me. I started to feel unsure about myself, I would talk down to myself. To the point where I would have some sort of mental breakdown. When this happened, I went to the people who I knew loved and cared for me. I would get their words implanted in my head of them saying that I can do it, that I am a beautiful person, that I should not second guess myself. In these circumstances, this is where I felt like I did not know who I was. I questioned my identity of who I am as a person. Even though I have been living for eighteen years, I still do not know my true self. I will keep questioning myself, I will keep feeling a some sort of abandonment, and trust issues for the longest time. These psychological effects will not leave my mind for a long time. But at least that who I am, I finally found a part of me that is not a mystery anymore.
Being a teenager is not as easy as you think, as you grow older life becomes more complicated and frustrating. Sometimes, you get lost. You don’t know what do, you don’t know who to trust anymore and unsure of the path you wish to embark upon. You find it hard to enjoy the things you once found pleasure in. As time passes by the feeling doesn’t stop and then there will come a point that you’ll discover something terrifying. You’re depressed. The world doesn’t seem as beautiful anymore. You don’t want anybody else to help you. You have become an introvert now. You’ll feel as if you don’t have any worth in this world anymore for days or months at a time. Sometimes the pain feels lighter. It’s because time heals all wounds. I chose this topic because I know a few people with depression and honestly speaking, it’s not easy. I know that this research will be beneficial to many people.
The changes I had to make in the last three weeks is on the verge of monumental. I now find myself searching for ways to better myself, I strive to make myself better, and I am hungry to learn something new everyday. For that to happen I had to change myself and how I percieved myself. I had to learn that I was not going excel at everything but I had to quit doubting myself and learn to build myself up instead of tearing me down. No one can bring me down faster than I bring myself down. I had to do this by learning how I learned and finding a way to challenge myself and find a different way to learn. I know the best way that I learn but I needed to learn more about the patterns and myself as a learner. I didn’t want to be ordinary when being extraordinary is a better
Nothing has changed my life more since the realization that I had to make who I was something that I chose, and not something that just happened. Since this revelation nothing seemed the same anymore, as though I could see the world through new eyes. It changed everything from my taste in music, literature, and movies. Things of a dark and pessimistic nature used to hold a strong allure for me, and yet I found much of things I once enjoyed didn't seem to entertain me anymore. I remembered the mental state that I once held and now seeing how I have changed, know that I can never return to the prison I came from.
... is constantly radiating with happiness. The rain cloud that was lurking over my dad’s head for the past year has now been replaced with rainbow. And me, well, strange memories and waves of nostalgia tainted with deja vu have been hitting me frequently. Sometimes, I long for the days that my dad, mom, sister, and I would spend together--all four us, one happy family. I could try to blame it on the lack of sleep or nourishment, but I actually think I’ve developed the “Peter Pan Syndrome,” or rather the “Peter Pan Syndrome” already encoded within me has simply grown and developed, like a small tumor of now epic proportions. When am I going to let go and truly grow up? Nevertheless, every now and then I look back at my life and come across a blank spot where I lost myself, like skips on a scratched CD. Even though I’m happy, that blank spot never fails to hurt like hell.
Be yourself– we often hear that phrase as a piece of advice, whether in real life or in fictionalized accounts of human life in media such as film or books. Being one’s true self is often touted as an ideal to strive for. It is believed to be able to grant one a happy, content life, since being yourself would mean you would be free to make the right decisions in your life without complying society’s expectations – you would not need to constantly clash with your conscience. Nowadays, however, being your true self may prove a daunting task.
I’m not going to tell you to go on and do well, become the doctors and lawyers and teachers of tomorrow. This isn’t a speech to tell you how to live or how to go on, but to remind you how you have for the past eighteen years of your lives. We’re all eighteen! Seventeen, seventeen and a half, who cares! We all grew up together. I’ve walked into school every day for the most part for the past thirteen years of my life and I’ve seen the same people, the same faces with the same old stories.
Every year I learn more about myself. The person inside no longer takes peeks at the world outside, but screams "Look at me, see what I’ve become, watch because I am coming!" I’ve been through difficult times, but the odds are starting to lean my way; I feel ready for any challenge that may arise.
I want to begin by reminding you that there will never be absolutely anybody like you. Please soak that sentence in for a minute. Now ponder on this, you have your own unique gifts that no one will ever have! You are a BIG deal and you really need to realize and come to terms that you are that special!
In order to realize who I am, I had to first realize the truths around me. I had to accept that my father abandonment of his family was due to his own fear and insecurities of not wanting to settle down. As a child I would constantly defend his choice to leave, but as a young man I can finally see him as he truly is. My next step in understanding myself was to break down my internal barricades. I would avoid conflict by keeping my ideas to myself, locking them away never to reach another 's ears. Recently in my life I have begun to shun the vault of ideas and be more honest and open about how I feel. I 've cured myself of the fear of being ridiculed for speaking up. As a ramification of being more honest with others I have been compelled to be honest with myself. My hardest truth was admitting to the effect that labeling has had on me. Society finds comfort in labeling things around us but we rarely care about its negative consequences. Since before I can remember I have been academically gifted which caused me to be labeled as a genius. Hearing the word monotonously repeated to me led me to believe that I actually was a genius. I thought to myself, Geniuses can 't fail at anything, so when I did inevitably fail, my confidence and faith in myself plummeted. Thinking, Why am I not good enough?, broke me, but I thankfully reached the conclusion that I am not what others tell me I
Being yourself? Being Your Best Self, The Strong, Beautiful, Intelligent, Determined, Dependable you! I strive to be a Better me everyday! I want to be a better person than I was yesterday, To smile more, love harder , being kinder , to help more and staying true to myself and my morals. I feel that being your best self takes determination confidence and the right attitude.
"You must constantly ask yourself these questions: Who am I around? What are they doing to me? What have they got me reading? What have they got me saying? Where do they have me going? What do they have me thinking? And most important, what do they have me becoming? Then ask yourself the big question: Is that okay? Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.”